I've been in a bit of a funk lately.  Lots of things keep going on and I've been having a hard time adjusting and dealing with it all.  I know that my life is in a transition phase right now.  I can feel it.  Things need to shift and adjust and not everything or everyone in my life right now will be here when all is said and done. 

I've been doing my best to deal and figure it all out as it comes.  Some things are easier than others to take.  The tough ones?  Well those are just tough!  I have lots of thoughts and ideas but no decisions made. 

Progress continues on my fitness training.  I'm still struggling with my business name but I have some pretty good ideas.  We'll see what I end up coming up with.  Just looking forward to where it all ends up.  I'm excited with it all.  And VERY scared.  Things are just falling into place but I know I need to continue to work as hard as I have to keep up this great momentum. 

I am truly blessed to have the amazing people I have in my life.  Not a lot of people can say that they have friends like this.  I know if I needed someone, I have SO many options of who I could call.  My life has already made a HUGE switch with that.  I've completely opened myself up to new people and new experiences and so much continues to come into my life.  The work I have done on myself made it possible for me to get here and have these experiences now.

I still have struggles.  I have been trying to focus on the positives that I have in my life to see me through the not so positives.  Every person and every experience gives me knowledge and from there I can continue to grow and learn.  I am not going to let anything or anyone hold me back, especially myself. 

Every day I learn more about who I am and what I am capable of.  I have light bulb moments all the time... those great AH HA!  moments where everything just comes together.  They may not be over the most positive situations in my life, but seeing things in new perspectives and having different realizations will only benefit me in the long run. 

My dreams in my life are coming true and that really is a little scary! 

I'm getting certified next weekend to be a fitness trainer.  I have a place to start teaching and a chance to start my own business as a fitness instructor and yoga teacher.  I am on the path to the career I have wanted and I really can help people achieve their goals!

Again, with my friends.  It really is an amazing and GROWING group, and I mean GROUP!  I don't even know how many of us there are anymore!  Last weekend, there were 6 at the show, 2 in it, and at least 3 who didn't make it.  I always feel like I am forgetting people, we have gotten so big!  Carrie, Laura, Jill, Jen, Christine, Kristin, Tracie, Jill and me were the start of the group.  Then Patty, Aimee, and Tricia were added too.  Sometimes Paula, Karen and Lisa too.  Out of the first bunch, I know if I called any of them, they would be there for me in a heartbeat.

And they are all friends with each other too, which is great.  Jill and Kristin were out last night.  I was out with Laura and Aimee on Thursday and on Wednesday I was out with Patty and Jill. And I know that the others hang out and talk without me there all the time.  Carrie and Laura were in the show together last weekend.  I think its great what we have and how this whole group formed so nicely.  No drama, no bs, just fun!  And they are all just really good people. 

What else?  Finances continue to improve.  My car will be paid off this summer.  This week is going to be tight but after my next check, things will be better from then on out.  That covers the little bills, then 2 weeks later is no medical insurance paycheck and in March I have no car or apartment insurance due.  Plus getting my taxes back and then having some income from teaching fitness classes too.  Things are just looking up.

My relationships with my family continue to improve.  That's always good.

In general, my health is good.  I am continuing to be proactive and do what I need to do to take care of myself as best as I can.

Work pays the bills.  Starting to pursue my career in fitness, I am changing how I look at my full time job so it isn't such a drain on my energy.  It is a paycheck.  It pays my bills. I leave at 5 and leave all the stress of it there. 

Then last but not least is my boyfriend.  I love him.  We have struggles, I have struggles in the relationship but I'm always learning.  When push comes to shove, he's the one I call.  I needed a ride into Boston for a 3 hour doctor appointment.  I just wanted to be dropped off and picked up.  He was planning on spending the 3 hours there with me until I told him no.  If something happens, he wants me to call him. 

I have a lot I'm dealing with within our relationship, things I'm still trying to figure out for myself.  But I do know that I love him.  I love being with him.  I love when we start laughing and can't stop!  I love when he wraps his arms around me in bed and holds me in his arms.  I love when we are spooning and he kisses the back of my head and says, "I love you baby".  Those are the great moments.  No relationship is all great moments, but we do have a lot of them and for that I'm happy.  Thinking of those, I smile. 

So yes, almost all of my dreams are coming true!  Things in my life are just falling into place for me.  It is very scary to have everything you want just all come together for you.  Life won't be all roses all the time.  Bumps and bruises will come up along the way.  Then I I'll head to kickboxing and beat the hell out of the bag and take out all of my frustrations!  :)  But for now, I'm just going to enjoy what I have.  I'm enjoying having my dreams come to life.