Thursday, April 23, 2009

I'm such a guy when it comes to sports. I'm single, I live alone and I'm home watching the Celtics playoff game. Last night, after getting home from the Sox game, I was watching the Bruins sweep in round 1. I don't get it. I've always been like that too. If I'm around guys watching tv, I'll tell them what game to put on, I don't want to watch a movie. I'd rather watch a game. And this weekend, Yankees weekend... yeah, I'll be watching them all!! :)

So I have done my 2nd thing outside of my comfort zone for April. I don't really want to get into it but it was one of those, take a deep breathe moments. I did what I needed to do, but I wasn't comfortable with it at all. Gotta thank Valerie for the words of encouragement to get me there.

I'm doing my best to work on other things on the list. Some are easier than others, but some will take a long time to achieve... making 5 new friends. That isn't something that happens overnight. But I think with all of the meet up groups I'm doing, I am working on it. I went walking with someone outside of meet up on Sunday, and next Tuesday I am having dinner with someone else. So I'm doing my best.

(ok, the Celtics hit 2 three point shots in a row, 56 to 37!! This is good!)

I'm still trying the on line dating thing. I can be so dumb sometimes. Saturday while I was out for brunch, we were talking about on line dating. A couple of the women joined a free site. I got home and figured why not? Its free! So I was going to do it. Somehow I ended up on another site, which has some free features, but not all. So I paid the $25 to join for one month. Then I realized what I did, that I was on a different site. SO I went back to the completely free site and joined that one too... now I have those 2 plus I am still paid up on Match for another month, even though I never go on it.

But one thing I kind of like.. I ended up on the site I paid for by mistake... I have talked to some cool guys on that site! Last night I was IM'ing one guy for well over an hour. He was really nice! It was pretty cool... we were both watching the Bruins game, but messaging back and forth all night. I was emailing a few other guys like that too. I think there are 3 that I like the most at this point. I'm tempted to do something else on my list... ask a guy on a date! I want to see and meet the one I was talking to last night. I'll be closer to where he lives on Sunday, so it would be nice to meet him for a drink later in the day. I don't know... I haven't decided yet.

I guess that's all that's going on with me. This weekend will be in the 80's. Tomorrow is Friday, life is good!! :)

Monday, April 20, 2009

1) My brother left today. He left about 8am and I got a text message from him tonight that he was already in Ohio. He was stopping somewhere to watch the Bruins game (WON!) and spend the night there. My dad took my mom to a casino today to give her a distraction. I know she's going to have a really hard time with him being gone. Not only is she going to deal with the whole empty nest thing, but he's moving half way across the country!! That will be a big challenge for her.

2) I didn't go to the Salsa thing tonight. I was supposed to go with someone from work and she called in sick. Then on top of it, driving into Cambridge today with the Marathon, early Sox game (WON!) and tonights Celtics game (WON THAT TOO!!), Boston would be a little crazy... even for a holiday and school vacation week.

3) I cancelled the sailing thing too... I'm doing a couple of other things that day instead. I am doing bootcamp in the morning and I am a co-organizer for a walk that afternoon. I also RSVP'ed for a wine tasting that night... not sure if I'll make it to that, but I wanted to at least hold the spot and think about it.

4)I joined a couple of dating websites. Yes, I said a couple. I was trying to join one, which was free, but somehow ended up on another and paid $25 for a month for that one, but then went and found the free one and joined that one too. So I am currently an active member on three online dating sites. I have to say, the one I stumbled on and paid $25 for... I like the most. I have been emailing a ton of people over the past couple of days from that site. BUT.. and this is a HUGE BUT!!!! On guy has emailed me 3 times.. 3!! I haven't answered once, but he keeps emailing me! And that isn't even the bad part. Forgot anything he wrote in his profile, forget what he looks like (there is NO WAY IN HELL he exercises daily like he claims!)... his user name? Yeah, there are things thrown in with the name... but his user name is toe licker. Seriously. Toe Licker. Does he expect normal women to be ok with emailing him? I mean COME ON!!

5) I have the news on right now and for the 100th time in the past week I am hearing about The Craigslist Killer. Kind of scary. A "quiet" "normal" guy, 22 and engaged college student living in Quincy. Freaky. Amazing what people think is ok.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Tonight was a great & very much needed night. First, I can cross off and have already updated my 101 list with some new things. I went to a meet up group tonight. It was the 2nd of the month! April is good. But I do have several more events planned for this month and I just added another. And I want to keep them all!
More bootcamp, the weekend and next weekend (hopefully it will get easier as I go!), tomorrow night I am meeting for dinner for another group, Saturday after bootcamp I have brunch (quickly fly home to shower and get ready to get to bunch by 11!), & I am trying rock climbing again at the end of the month.
There are 2 more things I am signed up for and they are both on my list too! I forgot about one until I was just updating and re-read the list... go sailing! I am signed up for sailing in Boston Harbor for next weekend. That should be fun and hopefully the weather will be nice out. I'm really looking forward to that.
The other even I JUST signed up for was Salsa dancing lessons. I REALLY want to learn how to Salsa. I have been thinking of it and I signed up once, but had to cancel. MIT offers FREE Salsa lessons on Monday nights. Why have I never done this? I don't know. I LOVE dancing, any kind. I think this will be great!
Second thing I wanted to say about tonight... the meet up group I went to. I love this group. I love the organizer. I feel almost selfish about it. I feel like I am taking SO much away from it myself. The people are amazing. They are so open and positive. This is the 2nd month I have gone to an event with them. Tonight I was talking to a guy who said the way he wants to be more successful is to help other people succeed and be happy. And that went into how he dances, INCLUDING SALSA! We kept talking about dancing.... how you can just feel it. I knew this was a sign that I need to be at MIT on Monday night. This is a promise that I am going to keep to myself. I need to start dancing again. I was so happy when I spent 5 nights a week doing some type of dancing. I loved it. I need that in my life again. Monday night I will start! :)
OH!! One more thing... on the "out of my comfort zone". I has sushi tonight. SO NOT my thing. It was good! I was surprised! I didn't know what to get or to order. It isn't like going to an Italian Restaurant where something at least looks familiar. NOTHING was familiar. I asked a couple of people what they thought I should get, to ease into sushi. Someone explained it pretty well... when you first started drinking wine, you started with White Zin. California Rolls are the White Zin of Sushi. :) SO that's what I ordered. I think I'll stick to the sushi version of white zin for a little while before I move on to chardney! :)
But right now, I am in a really good place. I'm happy. I feel good. I like this group, I like these people and I like the positive energy that they bring out in me. I hope that I can find a way to bring this out in myself on my own. I think I can do it! I hope learning to Salsa dance on Monday will help get me on my way! :)

Monday, April 13, 2009

I think I might have done something else on my list and I didn't even mean to do it! How funny is that?

Last week I went to see a show. Loretta LaRoche is a comedian of sorts who deals with stress and woman's issues. Her new PBS special is called Juicy Living, Juicy Aging. I got free tickets to the taping of the show. Loretta was SO funny. I had a great time and she made some wonderful points.

On the way home, I realized... hey, on my 101 list I put, "Get on TV". Well... the show opens with a shot of the audience, right where I was sitting. Guess I need to wait until August to find out when I am supposed to call in to PBS and make my pledge and get video as my gift! :)

The show was great. Between that and the monthly group I go to, I realized that I really do need to focus more on the positive. It can be really hard, especially at work when I am surrounded by cranky pants ever where I turn. I need to turn to my desk, see the pictures I have on my cube walls of the beach and of the Red Sox and remember I can control how I feel. I don't need to let the nasty-ness of other people control my emotions.

That really is a tough one for me. And where I work, people can be SO nasty.. I don't even know how many people talk about taking their "happy pills". Trust me... I can tell when they don't take them! Today was a good day. I was hiding in my office, barreling through all of my work. I got a crazy amount accomplished. I still have a mound of work to get through... a never ending process for me, but at least I feel like I made a little dent today.

I am looking forward to the meet up group I am going to Wednesday night. It really should be a lot of fun. The people there are so nice. Last month I REALLY enjoyed being there. Then I have another group I am having dinner with Thursday night and brunch on Saturday... a few hours after I have my "bootcamp" Saturday morning! :) Lots going on.

Right now I am having trouble with the "out of my comfort zone" thing. I realized something last week. The more I do outside of my comfort zone, the larger my comfort zone expands to. That makes it even harder to find more to do outside of it!! I don't know what to do this month outside of my comfort zone.

I thought I could go to the restaurant across the street for dinner at a table... one of the other things on the list, but I really want to do that at an outdoor place when it is warm out. I know I need to still go to a movie alone... THAT will be a tough one for me. But I will still do it.

I'm just stuck! What else is outside of my comfort zone right now? What can I do this month? I did SO many things in February and March... I did 2 in January. April?? NOTHING. I'm stuck. I don't know what I can do. I need to come up with a list of more ideas! Challenging!!! OH well. I'll figure something out. I am going to have to ask around for some ideas of crazy out of the box things I can do. :)

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Sox Game




We went to the Sox game last night. SO much fun!! We went in early to watch batting practice from the Monster Seats (this pic is from up there), walked around for a while, then watched the game. It was a ton of fun and I am SO happy we went. No such thing as a bad day at Fenway! :)

Sunday, April 5, 2009

I'm tired

I always hate it when people start saying things about the weekend is over when there are still hours left for Sunday. It isn't over yet... there is still non-work time to enjoy. I guess it is all a matter of perspective.

This weekend was insane. I am exhausted right now and I have to make sure I stay away until at least 9pm, otherwise I will wake up during the night and then I will be cranky at work tomorrow.

Yesterday I was up at 6:30 am to get ready for the bootcamp exercise class. This one wasn't quite as bad. No lungs instead of 20 minutes of different variations of lunges. That made me happy! I could move today. I felt good doing the class and I was proud of myself that I did it.

Today I was up again at 6:30. (really not much of a weekend if I am up at 6:30 am BOTH days! That is just not fun!) I showered, got ready and left to pick up a couple of people then headed down for the MS Walk. It was nice. There were a ton of people there and today was beautiful. The weather was great. 60 and sunny. A little windy but for walking along the ocean I won't complain. We did the 6 miles in about an hour and a half. We were walking at a really nice clip.

After I dropped everyone off, I flew home, got ready and was right back out the door. Today was my cousin's baby shower. I really don't love showers. BUT, I sat there and ooh-ed and aaahh-ed at all the appropriate times. Then drove home and I'm already in my sweats.

I was a "maybe" for tonights knitting group. I called my friend Michelle and said there is no way. I am ready to fall asleep right now. After she got to hear all about my fun time at the shower, she told me I should stay home because I was a little cranky. She didn't know how much I don't like showers.

Ok, so back on the shower thing... really, a car seat, baby swing, bouncie seat and dirty diaper pail are exciting? I'm not kidding... the snug something 32 carseat(yes, it had a number in the name) was a VERY big topic of converation. Its all the rave in mommy-ville. SO not my thing.

On a funny note... the mom's younger sister (not married, no kids and not generally around many childern) was sitting next to the mom to be, writing out the list of the gifts for thank you cards. After teh snug-whatever car seat the mom to be said good, seeing as the hospital won't let me leave without one. The younger sister asked, "newborns can be in carseats?" She wasn't kidding. This is a girl who TURNED DOWN Harvard! Nice.

Hmmm... maybe a nap wouldn't be a bad idea. I might still be able to fall asleep tonight.

Friday, April 3, 2009

Happy Friday

I started off the day super happy. Today is Friday!!! The weekend is supposed to have beautiful weather. Every HAS to be happy on Friday's. It really should be a law. Half the people I work with were miserable today. I did my best to ignore them.

Then I got an email! A beautiful wonderful email from a super nice friend! Mr. Smith (and I'm not making that up, he really is Mr. Smith!) :) Anyway, Mr. Smith sent me an email and said that a friend of his gave him 2 tickets for Wednesday nights Red Sox game and Mr. Smith couldn't make it. He didn't want the tickets to go to waste, and he thought of me! I WAS SO EXCITED! Too bad I was in the middle of a call (with a not too bright person) when I got the email. I started to dance in my chair... I emailed back Mr. Smith and said, YES!! I'm doing the Sox Ticket Dance in my chair!! :)

I sent him an email after I got off the phone (when I could actually focus, but that was also after 2 cups of coffee, so focusing at all at that point was challenging! Forgot about throwing in 2 tickets to a Sox game!! And on another side note, hit Taco Bell for lunch and got a large Mountain Dew. I really shouldn't be given that much caffeine in one day.. there's something else that should be a law. I was shaking half the day from the amount of caffeine I had. It was worse in the morning with 2 cups of coffee and nothing to eat. The shaking after Taco Bell's Mountain Dew wasn't so bad because I had Taco Bell crappy food with it... yummy, but not so good on the tummy. My friend calls fast food, rent-a-food, since it is, um, gone soon.)

Ok, back to where I was before that tangent... but such a fun tangent! :) I sent Mr. Smith an email after I got off the phone. I told him how my little brother is moving to St. Louis on the 20th. And how I was SO happy to have this game with him before he moves away! Mr. Smith was happy the tickets weren't going to waste and happy because it was for me and my brother! He is all sweet like that and gets stuff like that.

SO this was a wonderful happy Friday! I had to reschedule dinner plans for Wednesday night and a job interview for a p/t job at a restaurant but for Sox tickets? SO worth it! The job interview is on Monday night now. And I think it will work out more in my favor. I was honest with her about why... my little brother is moving out of state, I got tickets for him and I to go to a Sox game and I can't pass it up. She said she completely understood and would do the same thing. I think the additional contact and phone conversations with her will be helpful for her remembering me a little bit better when she is interviewing a ton of people over 3 days for this new restaurant. Anything to help you stand out, right?

That's it for now... Friday night, hanging in. Already in sweats. About to grab dinner. Just SUPER happy for Wednesday night. I can't wait to go to the Sox game with my brother. At least this is 1 thing I am doing with him outside of a family thing... 4 more to do for my list. Harder to do when I'm in Boston and he's in St. Louis.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Already April!!

So just by having this one post today, I can add to (and already updated) my 101 list. :) I have been doing pretty well on that list and I'm working hard at making my way through it. I'm proud of myself too!

SO #12, updated to 3/66 for writing twice a month... I can't count more than 2 per month.

#22 Go to the dentist. I went today. Not too bad. I went to a new dentist. She was nice. I'm always nervous with the dentist. I have 2 teeth that need sealants. She said I won't even need numbing, just cleaning the sealant and that will prevent the cavities. So, I did it and faced a fear.

#43 my AIC test. Yeah, it is scheduled for less than 3 weeks away. I've read chapter 1. This is going to be difficult. I have a ton of studying to do. On a positive note, I brought the book inside tonight (its been living in my car for weeks). Since I have been having trouble sleeping all week, I thought that might be a way to help me sleep. Read a book about insurance. If that can't put me sleep, then nothing will! Seriously though, I REALLY need to study!

#57 Ok, I needed to change this one. Originally, go to the gym every day for a month. I haven't been to the gym in close to a year. I hate it. I just gave them money EVERY month. That wouldn't be so bad if it was only one gym, but NO! I had 2 gym memberships that I hadn't used in a year. SO, since the economy sucks, I'm broke and every little bit helps, I cancelled both gym memberships. This will save me $65 per month. So, I needed to change #57. The new #57 is exercise every day for a month. With at least 15 exercise DVD's, an exercise channel and the same channel on demand, I can figure out other things and other ways to exercise. Plus, summer is coming and almost here. I will be able to go outside more often. SO, that's how I updated #57.

#91 DID ANOTHER. I went to a knitting group. I'm counting that as a craft class. I learned stuff and worked on a knitting project. I liked it. It was fun, the people were nice and I was SO happy! Of course I messed up the hat I was making so I needed to start over. But that's ok. SO I needed to take of knit a hat, since I really haven't done it yet. :)

That's about it as far as updates on my list


On other notes! My parents are coming home from Aruba tomorrow. They just called me again (this was the 3rd time!). Gotta love cell phones! :) But they are having a blast. Spent the day on the beach. I bet they have great tans when they come home. I'm going to be so jealous, but that's ok.

Little brother is in St. Louis visiting the girlfriend who he's moving in with in less than 3 weeks. It still bothers me. I don't like her and my mom doesn't know her and he's dropping his life to move to another city for her.

Work is crazy. A part of a project that I was told I wouldn't be working on, found out today I'll be getting as well. Guess its job security. They keep giving me more and more and more work. Too bad the AC unit is still a mess. It runs and it right above my head. Too bad even the walls vibrate from it. It was HUMMING for over 5 hours today. I thought my head was going to explode. Makes it REALLY hard to function. Getting a lot more work when I can't focus from the noise is going to be challenging.

I cancelled a meet up group tonight. Its raining, and I didn't feel like walking a beach tonight. Feeling a little bad, but between my head throbbing and the rain, I was good!!

This weekend is going to be insane. Saturday morning I have the bootcamp class, the one that made me not able to walk for 3 days. Then Sunday I'm doing a 6 mile walk for MS. That's going to be fun!!! I hope I can actually walk that day. Anyway, after the walk I have to go to my cousin's baby shower. Then another knitting group if I feel up to it.

Now on to the baby shower thing... what is up with showers? Really? I mean, you sit around and watch someone open gifts. Its not fun. I guess a baby shower is better than a wedding shower. You can't really oohhh and aaahhh over the 5th place setting. At least baby clothes are cute. I'm just not looking forward to sitting around hearing about the first kid in our family and watching her open all yellow and green clothes... unless everyone knows, SHE DOESN'T LIKE YELLOW!

And now a days, who doesn't find out what they are having??? ESPECIALLY IF YOU DON'T LIKE YELLOW! What does she really think she is going to be getting??? I was not a happy camper the day we went shopping. We still managed to spend $200 at Babies R Us, more at Walmart (shhh.. don't tell her, she'd NEVER shop at Walmart!) and I had already gotten a couple of little things from Avon and Target. Plus the basket my mom already bought too. I don't know. I just hate showers.

I guess I'm out for things to say.... at least for today.