Officially out, turned in the keys.

WOW! Took long enought, but I'm finally done with the old apartment. Today was a LONG crazy day.
First, I set my alarm for 9am, but forgot to shut off my cell phone. I'm not a morning person and it takes a while for me to wake up. SO after 45 minutes of my cell phone alarms (yes, plural! All 3 alarms on the phone) I woke up at 7:15. I finally fell back to sleep but was up at 9, dragging. I went off to Zumba, which was SO much fun, stopped at the new apartment to empty out my truck from yesterday (I was too tired to finish last night) and then head to the old apartment.
I packed up my car right away and was getting more organized when my parents showed up. After a bit of a horror show and some yelling, dad decided that the stuff they were storing needed to be done in 2 trips, so he left. Mom and I finished packing my car and started cleaning the kitchen and bathroom. When dad got back we all finished up, I turned in the keys and we all went out to eat.
I got back to my new place and just took a couple of things out of the front seat. I really don't have the energy to do anything else right now. My back seat if full, not to mention my trunk. I don't know where I am going to put all this crap! And thats after all I tossed, donated and the 2 car loads I'm storing at my parents house! WOW! Did I have a lot of crap or what?
Right now it is a little overwhelming looking around this place because boxes and bags of crap are everywhere and I do mean EVERYWHERE! I have a pile of bags right in the middle of my kitchen floor. I didn't know where else to put it!
Tomorrow when I get out of work I'm going to empty out the rest of my car (unless by some mysterious reason I get the energy to do more trips tonight). I have no idea when I'm going to be putting all this crap away. There is just so much of it!
But I'm out of the old place and ready to move on... to where ever my life takes me now! :)

Almost out

I didn't make the smartest choice of my life today. I got up early and went to "Kick Butt Boot Camp" at 8am. Then I went to the old apartment to finish packing up. I emptied and vaccuumed both bedrooms and the living room. My first trip I packed up my car, drove to the new apartment and emptied it. Then I went back to repete the process. I haven't finished unloading my car the 2nd time. I counted 22 steps in the old apartment from my car to my kitchen. 22 friggin steps. Each time I brought something out to my car, then back up 22 step, and down and and down and up. And once my car was filled, I brought out some more trash (another 22 steps each way!)
I haven't counted the steps in my new apartment to get to the 2nd floor, but I have an eaiser system here. I leave the front door open to the entry way and unload my car leaving everything there. Then I open the door to my apartment and just go up and down those stairs with no extra walking back out to the car.
My butt hurts! My butt, my legs, my back, my arms. My whole body hurts! And my car is still full and I think I have 2 more trips to make the old apartment empty!
My parents are coming down tomorrow to help me clean the kitchen and bathroom and to take things back to their house to store for me.... summer clothes, Christmas decorations and things like that. I seriously have no idea where I am going to put everything I am keeping. I can't believe how much stuff I have, and that's even WITH getting rid of over 30 trash bags or boxes of stuff to donante and tossing a ton of stuff too! WOW!!!
I just want to be settled in the new place. Tomorrow is it in the old one... turning in the keys at the end of the day (well, taping them to the door of the landlord's business next door). I wish that was it, but it won't be. I have boxes and bags everywhere in the new place. EVERYWHERE! I can't see my kitchen table! This is insane. It might take me the entire month of February to get unpacked. I am determined to be settled and have all of this taken care of. Just lots of work.
With all the stairs and the boot camp this morning, Zumba tomorrow, belly dancing Monday night and then my legs & abs class on Tuesday night, I hope I lose weight this week! Last week I was only down 0.6 again! SO frustrating when I'm working out as hard as I am. If I had more money I'd go foodshopping and buy healthier food. OH well.
I don't want to empty my car out. I am so comfortable! I just want to go take a shower, but I can't take a shower then do another 25 trips up and down the stairs! And the movie we are going to tonight starts at 6:30. I think I should leave my house by 5:30 to get to his house (he lives closer to that cinema than I do). I need to get moving. I have to dry my hair which takes a while, so I should be in the shower by 4, just in case I run late... OH YEAH, I need to stop and get gas too. Damn.
Yeah, I need to get my butt up and off the comfy sofa and empty out my car! :(

I'm in a funk today. I haven't been sleeping well this week and my back has been bothering me. Now I'm tired and very cranky. Not to mention just broke. I'm tired of being broke. I know next month will get better. My rent will be less, my bills will be less. But right now... not so much.

Work has been crazy. I'm sick of people. There are very few I am happy with right now. I think next week will be better... a new month.

I've had 2 dates with this guy and Saturday night is the 3rd. I like him. I'm really looking forward to spending more time with him. He's a nice guy, smart, funny, respectful and fun to be with. I like him and I want to see where this goes. We were "matched" on eharmoney on January 2nd and emailed for a few days. He called me the first week in January and we had our first date the Monday after I moved. He likes that I have my own life, do my own things and that I'm busy on my own. I think a lot of guys don't want to be with someone who is dependant on them, but who they can be partners with.

Funny, cuz I know he wants to eventually get married and have kids. And strangely (NO IDEA how this conversation came up or how I even asked him this!) but when he has kids, he doesn't want his wife to be a stay at home mom. He wants someone who is still going to work and contribute. Financially, I think he could support a family on his own, he does well, but I think he just wants someone who is working. But weird that this somehow already came up.

Its is scary though in one sense. I know I am going with it and doing my best to not put anything on it but still, so far there are no negatives. It is nice. I like going with it and seeing where this is going to go. I hope that it goes well.

I looked at my calendar for what I have coming up in February. Man, I'm busy already but it is all fitness classes. Mondays (except for Presidents Day) I have belly dancing. Tuesday nights I have Alex's legs & abs class. Hopefully my doctors tells me I can do more on my arms and I can take Alex's class on Thursday's. Then I have bootcamp on Saturday and Sunday, plus Zumba on Sunday's. I think that the Zumba tone class is going to be a regular on Wednesday nights too. So then I'd just need Friday nights.
All of that, plus February is a short month, I think I am going to make February the month that I exercise every day.. off of my 101 list.
Hopefully with that, I'll lose some weight on the scale for my Skinny B Club! :) I just need to make sure I have the cash to pay for all of these classes. Hopefully everything will work out.

Tonight was funny... after working out with the trainer for a great legs and abs class, I come home to watch The Biggest Loser. Bob has them doing walking lunges. I posted on my trainers facebook page, "why did I think you you?"
I love working out with Alex. I have gotten so much out of working out with her. I feel so much better and so much healthier. Yeah, tonight I ate a little too much after working out. I had salad with Caesar dressing and some turkey and cheese roll ups. But I kicked my butt at the class. My legs are burning still just sitting on my sofa.
Tomorrow I am going to the old apartment to get things out for the donation pick up. That'll be a few trips up and down the stairs. Then on Thursday night I'll be back there again with WAY more trips up and down the stairs and walking back and forth down the driveway for the trash pick up. I'll have a ton that's going out between the both nights. I need to remember to bring trash bags with me tomorrow. I think I'm almost out. And I want to bring lots back to my new place when I come home each night.
I'm hoping that when my parents come to help me, that they will come on Sunday instead. That way I can get lots done on my own on Saturday and it will be just the stuff my parents are taking and cleaning.
OH! Biggest Loser is getting closer to the end... time for the weigh in. Honestly, I really don't like the red team. She's bitch. I can't lie, I don't like and she's full of crap. I hope they don't win immunity next week. I want her to go home!!

So this month I tried 3 things I've never done before and they were ALL fitness related. I tried Zumba last weekend, Saturday I went cross country skiing and tonight I took a belly dancing class. WOW! I like this. Next month is going to be a challenge.
I don't know how much I thought about this. At least one fitness thing I have never done before each month??? That's a bit much, huh? Hmm... I have NO idea what I can do in February! Would skating at Frog Pond count? I've never been on an outdoor rink, so maybe? Is that pushing it?
I'll have to figure out a few things that I can do and start looking into more options. This is going to be more work than I originally thought.

I was at the new apartment tonight before belly dancing. I got things more organized with what I need to do. The Veterans Association is coming for another pick up on Thursday morning, so I am going to put stuff outside Wednesday night. I need to get lots done that night to make sure I have everything ready to go. Then I'll be back there Thursday night to take ALL the trash out. Hopefully between those nights I can get lots done. I'll be back there most likely on Friday night too and then again both on Saturday and Sunday to finish clearing and cleaning. Sunday night I have to turn in the keys. Mom and Dad will be there one day and they will take a bunch of stuff to their house to store for me. Not sure if the realize quite how much I want to give them. I really have a lot left to do. I'm getting nervous. Even with all that I have donated and tossed, I'm freaking out!
But come next Monday, February 1st, I won't need to be there ever again! That'll be nice. I'll be completely in my new apartment! I can't wait!! :)

Things are really falling into place for me. Work is going great, I'm almost settled in my new place, my health is getting better with my back and my weight. And things are going in the right direction with the new guy. I'm happy with how things are progressing and I'm looking forward to all my conversations with him. This is a really good time for me. I know this year is going to be a great year and I can't wait to see what else happens! I'm happy. I'm really happy. I don't know the last time I could say that and really mean it.

So the bruise on my hip is about the size of a softball and pretty sore. I can't really lay on my right side without feeling it. :( Hopefully it will get better soon.
I did make it to the trainer's class at 9am this morning. I thought my legs were going to fall off, especially after yesterday with the cross country skiing! I'm glad I did it, it makes me feel better. But it is VERY nice to sit and do nothing right now.
I orginally was going to go to my parents house today, then out for a drink with my cousin. I left my cousin a message around 1:30, but she hasn't called back and I talked to my mom and she's cool with not going up. I took a shower and have been laying on my sofa for hours! I feel much better. I'm so tired and my muscles ache.
I am still looking forward to belly dancing tomorrow night, but I know it is going to be a challenge. I am SO sore! In a good way, but sore!

On another note, had date 2 with someone the other night. I like him. The end of the night was weird both times, but other than that, I do like him. He called me yesterday and again today when he was on his way out to meet up with some friends. He said he'd call later too. So far so good, and I'm just going with it. I don't want to put any expectations on it or anything, I just want to see what happens. I like talking to him, I have fun when I'm with him. That's all that matters right now. He has the character and values that I'm looking for in someone. He's smart, driven and successful. He makes me laugh and I can be me around him. So we'll see what happens. I want to see what he's doing Wednesday night. I have that night free and it would be nice to get together with him again.
I do want to ask him.. not for this coming weekend cuz I'll be busy cleaning out the rest of the old apartment, but for the weekend after that, if he wants to go to Patriot's Place to their outdoor skating rink and go ice skating and grab something to eat. I just need to see how the next week or so go before I bring up something almost 2 weeks out.

Weekend is winding down. Time to start getting my head around the coming week. I hope it is another good week. :)

I tried cross country skiing today. I didn't realize we would do some hills. I fell so many times and all but twice I landed on my right hip. I already have a bruise bigger than my fist with big red spots in it. It hurts SO much.
Once I fell and landed on my right hand. I was so scared that something was going to happen to my wrist again! It hurt. I know I'm going to be sore tomorrow.
I'm going to an exercise class in the morning and I'm going to be dead! But I want to keep going. I need to keep going.
Then I start up Belly Dancing on Monday night. I can't wait. That will be the 3rd thing I've done this month that I have never done before. I'm glad this is my resolution this year.
I've come pretty far over the past couple of years. I like being able to notice the changes. I'll be grateful for February 1st when I am completely out of my old apartment. I need that change, that break. This will help me. I will start to move even more forward.
I like where things are in my life. They have been going really well and I'm open to see what else happens and where else life takes me.

SO tired right now and I don't want to move. My jeans were wet when I walked in the door from the slushy crap on the ground. My mistake for putting on pj's to hang out in for the 1/2 hour I had.
I have to leave in less than 10 minutes for my legs/abs class and here I am typing away, watching the news, sitting in pj's!! NOT good.
But I'll get up in a minute and get my butt to class for Alex to kick it. :)
Tonight I dropped off my check and registration for a belly dancing class that starts up on Monday night for 8 weeks. I can't wait for that!
SO yup, this month will be covered. Two things I have never done before. Zumba (LOVE IT!) and belly dancing. OH yeah, taking another Zumba class on Thursday night that my friend Jess teaches. This week is going to be just as crazy.
Zumba Thursday, cross country skiing all day Saturday. A Core strength class Sunday at 9 then Zumba at 10:15, Belly Dancing Monday, and back to legs and abs next Tuesday night. Talk about getting my workouts in, huh? :)
Ok, time to go change and get to class!!

What a weekend!

It was very nice having another 3 day weekend. Last week was the first time since the week before Thanksgiving that I had to work a 5 day week. It was tough! Thanksgiving I worked 2 1/2 days. I had cortisone shots twice, so had 2 short weeks for that, took 2 fridays off in December, plus Christmas week and New Years week. That was a nice stretch! At least it was only one week and this is a 4 day week. But then I think it is 3 weeks straight of 5 days. URGH! Oh well... real life, right?

This weekend was CRAZY! I was so tried from last week that I had to cancel my plans for Friday night (a date, but obviously I'm not that into him, or I wouldn't have cared how tired I was!) I was in bed at 8pm on Friday night! I can't believe it! And my alarm woke me at 8am! WOW! Guess I needed it.
Saturday was non-stop. After I got up and did some cleaning and had my coffee, I went to a 9:30 bootcamp class. It was fun, but tough. Then I spent the day with my family at Patriot's Place. My little brother and his girlfriend were in town (well they still are until tomorrow, but I won't see them anymore, so past tense for me I guess!) They came down with my parents to see my new place then we all went down to Foxboro, walked around the shops, had lunch at CBS Scene then went to the Bass Pro Shop. It was fun, but not something I need to really do again, well, unless it is for the restaurants. There were some other places I wouldn't mind checking out. I'm not much of a shopper and not much of an outdoorsy sort of girl either, so the Bass Pro Shop isn't really my thing.
Anyway, we got home from that around 4:30 or so, and at 7 I was at a friends house for the night and we played a million games. She invited her family too, and it got pretty loud and roudy. I was ready to go when I left just before midnight.
Sunday was just as insane, if not worse. I started the day with my cats waking me at 7am. I did some cleaning around my apartment, had breakfast and was off to a 9am yoga class. After that I was at a 10:15 Zumba class. Never tried it before and now I LOVE it! SO much fun and I can't wait to take another class. I'm already signed up for next Sunday! I might take one with my friend Jess on Thursday night where she teaches. It was SUCH a good workout! Sweated my butt off and it was FUN!
I got home, hopped in the shower and went up to my parents house. My brother passed out the Christmas gifts, then we all went to my grandparents house for dinner. It was yummy as always and I ate way too many desserts, but with all that working out, it was ok! :)
Grandpa pulled out the slides at the end of the night, with the projector and screen. We looked through pictures from the late 60's. It was pretty funny!
My family was getting pretty loud and crazy by the end of the night and I was ready to go home. I shut the TV off at 9 and crashed imediately! I woke up at 7:15 today (again, the cats woke me!) and started it ALL over again!
Today, I did some picking up around here, ran the dishwasher after coffee and cereal. I left here around 9:30 and headed over to the old apartment. As soon as I got there, I started a load of laundry (that I brought with me). Then I went upstairs and got more clothes together for more laundry. I left there about 10:30, hit the ATM, and then went to another bootcamp class. (4th class in 3 days if you weren't counting!)
I got back to the apartment around 12:30, checked the laundry and kept on going upstairs. I picked up a salad for lunch and ended up staying over there until around 3 or so. I went through bags I already packed up and got even more to donate! Once I get into it, it is so much easier to TOSS! I have a bunch of bags for trash inside the apartment after I already filled up one trash barrell! And another 5 bags to donate. I'm going to wait until after next weekend before I call the Veteran's Association again. I'll have them come next week. I should have even more to donate then.
I took back 4 laundry baskets of clothes, one duffel bag, one trashbag and one suitcase. ALL FRIGGIN CLOTHES! I'm almost out of room at the new place! I have to figure out what I'm going to do because I still have a ton of "keeps" in the old closet! This isn't good! Hopefully I can get rid of even more.
I'm not sure when I'm going to finish this. I have my legs/abs class tomorrow night. I want to go back to the old apartment after that class to get stuff out of the dryer and do one more load of laundry. And hopefully I can bring a few more things back with me to this place, like more shoes and maybe stuff in the closet.
Wednesday night I have my no longer once a month class. Last month we decided to continue the group but to only meet 6 times in 2010. I wasn't going to do it originally, but with only meeting 6 times, that should work. Thursday I want to go to my friend Jess's Zumba class, and Friday night I have a date. (YEA! I like this one too!) Saturday is cross country skiing all day, then Sunday morning I have a cardio sculpt class at 9 and Zumba at 10:15. Damn.. I don't stop! :) I hope my uncle can come by my old place on Sunday to take out my washer and dryer and bring it to my parent's house. But I need to make sure I'm done with my laundry by then! SO.. that means I need to stop by there on Saturday to do this weeks laundry and be finished with it. URGH!

Hmmm... what else did I want to write about!
OH! My 101 list. I've been slowly working on it. A lot of things are sort of rolling. I know that with moving, I will be doing the recycling every other week. The box is at the bottom of my stairs, right next to my front door. It is pretty full right now, but it won't get picked up with tomorrow's trash... next week.
And with the energy saving light blubs, I do want to change them, but I think it is slightly counter productive to just change good light bulbs to energy savers, just to change them. Isn't that worse? So I am going to wait until these burn out, them replace them with the engergy savers.

I guess that's it. Now that it is after 10pm, I should probably go to bed. The morning will come quick and this week is going to be CRAZY! OH!! Getting my sofa on Thursday! :) Very happy with that. No more laying on cushions on the floor!

More cleaning and clearing

The past 2 nights I was at the old place. The Veteran's Association came today for a pick up so last night I was getting everything out onto the porch. This time, I put out one large box and 11, yes 11 trash bags full of clothes! And today, I brought another trash bag to work for someone! WOW! And I have already given about 15 bags to Veteran's. That's a lot of stuff to get rid of!
Tonight I was back there since tomorrow is trash day. Somehow I managed to get out the mattress and boxspring from the spare room plus about another 10 bags of trash. I gave up around then. I cleared out a few other areas, but I just didn't have the energy to take out anymore trash. I did one load of laundry and left it in the dryer. I swear I have another 10+ loads to do! Nice that I'm out of detergent!
I need to buy that tomorrow and hopefully I can get lots done this weekend. Unfortunately this weekend is turning out to be much busier than I originally thought. Good thing Monday is a holiday we get off for work!
I talked to mom tonight. My brother is in town this weekend. Him and his girlfriend flew in tonight. Saturday they all want to come down to see my new place then head over to Foxboro to hang out at Patriot Place for a while. Should be fun. And that's after I have my 9am bootcamp class.
Sunday I start my day with 9am yoga, then 10:15 Zumba and my family is having dinner at my grandparents house for everyone to see my brother. I'm hoping that I'll have enough time to get to my old place to do a load of laundry or 2 before driving up. And I might have a chance to get there for one load on Saturday. Then I will be there all day on Monday to finish up as much as I can for the weekend. Talk about NOT a relaxing weekend!
I can't wait until February... then I'll have to be completely out of the old place. I know I'll get there, but just LOTS to do between now and then. I do feel really good about what I've done over the past 2 nights. I hope I stick with that this weekend.
Right now, moving is MY LIFE! I can't wait until I'm settled and done with this.

living room without a sofa

I took a picture of my livingroom right now, with all the cushions laying across the floor. Here's my version of a sofa!




Notice my sandwich on the table and Patches off on the left corner. I can't wait until next week when I actually have furniture in my house!

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On another note... just found out that Mercury is still in retrograde, which means communication and computers are still messed up. I thought it already went direct! But NO! Another week or so of this. This week has not been very productive at work with all the computer issues we keep having! NOT FUN!
But time to get back to work... not even lunch but I needed a break from the maddness! :)
Happy Hump Day!
OH!! Our version of the biggest loser (the SBC), I was down 3.2 this week! YEAH ME!
I hope next week I have an even better week. I'm signed up for a bootcamp class Saturday at 9 and I have yoga Sunday at 9, followed by Zumba at 10:15 and next Tuesday I'll be back at my legs class. Hopefully I can find some time to hit the gym in there to get in some extra work out too! I really want to have a good week.
Think of what I could have done if I didn't go to the Cheesecake Factory Monday night! (2 glasses of wine, crab cakes, pasta dinner and split a cheesecake!)
Ok, now it is REALLY time to get back to work! :)

I'm more and more settled in my new place. I've gotten a little bit more unpacked but I have lots left to do. I'm going to my old place tomorrow to do more packing up and getting things put outside for a donation pick up (they come to the door!) I should have another 10 bags to get picked up this week. Just LOTS to do.
But everything is slowly falling into place. I know it will all work out alright. Just going to be work to get it there.
My sofa didn't fit out of my old place but I happened to find the info on the company who delivered it. I have an appointment next week and they are coming to move my sofa and oversized chair. Hopefully I can get rid of the rest of the boxes in the new place and make more of a dent of the stuff I need to get rid of.

Tonight I worked out with the trainer. Usually there are 4 or 5 of us, plus Alex our trainer doing the class. Tonight, it was me and Rebecca. Alex kicked our butts. She really thought it was funny when I said I didn't think I would be able to walk in the morning. I wasn't kidding! My office is downstairs in my building. I don't know if I am going to be able to go up and down the stairs! We started early too! She was crazy tonight. My hips were literally going to FALL OFF! I haven't worked that hard in a while.
I didn't want to go, but I know that I feel better after class. This Tuesday night class is a committment that I have made to myself. I need to start going back to the gym more often too. I need to work out more regularly.
We have weighin tomorrow for our diet club at work. I hope I did well this week. After moving, I did a million trips up and down the stairs and tonights work out. I think I did pretty well.
I just really really want to get myself under 140 pounds. I want to see that 3 show up on the scale on a regular basis. I don't care if I am 139.8... I just want to be under 140! I'm still happy with the past 20 pounds I have lost.
Biggest Loser has the pound for pound challenge and I signed up for it. I committed to 14 pounds, to lose 10%. I want to get to 126. URGH! I know it will be hard, but still, I know I can do it!!!
Time to be motivated and just do it!

Moving Day

Today was the big day. My parents drove down, cousin Jenn had her boyfriend's truck, Uncle Tom had his truck and Uncle Paul & Aunt Karen had their van. We only needed to make 2 trips as a group. After they left, I made another trip to get more clothes and my cats.
My uncle broke my entertainment center and a dresser drawer. Dad fixed the entertainment center and took home the dresser drawer to try to fix that. We made HUGE progress with everything. I put lots away already.
Biggest issue of the day... my sofa and oversized chair. When I bought the set almost 7 years ago, they couldn't get my sofa into my apartment. I paid a separate company to take it apart and put it back together again in my apartment. Well... we couldn't get the sofa out of my apartment. We didn't even try the oversized chair, because they didn't think that it would fit inside of the new apartment. SO now I need to find a company that can take them both apart and put them back together again in my new apartment and I need to do it within the next couple of weeks.
I'm sure it will all work itself out. Believe it or not, I'm not that stressed out about it. I'm just going to see what happens.

I joined EHarmoney New Years weekend. I have been talking to a few people and believe it or not, I have 2 dates. I have a date with one guy tomorrow, and another day on Monday night with a different guy. I'm looking forward to both dates. This will be fun. I'm glad I am doing something different.

And at the same time, I'm still busy with the whole meetup thing. I have a ton of things I'm doing over the next couple of weeks that I'm really looking forward to. I have been busy with the fitness thing as well. Tuesday night I have the legs class, Thursday morning I have an exercise class and Thursday night I am trying belly dancing! It is going to be a busy week, but I am really excited about all of it.

Last week on the 30th that my dad's cousin had a massive heart attack and died pretty much instantly. She was 58. Freaks me out. 4 years ago another one of my dad's cousin's died of a stroke, on Dec 26th and she was 58. How messed up is that?

I wrote my dad a long letter and gave it to him tonight. It basically said I don't want to lose you so please start taking better care of yourself.

Tonight sucked for the wake. I know wakes are never easy, but for someone in her 50's when it was that sudden? I feel so bad for her family. That was the hardest part. Her husband isn't well. He has severe arthritis and is in extreme pain. When I was with him, he said he just wants to know why it was her and not him, that it should have been him. It was horrible. Next week would have been their 40th wedding anniversary. He bought her a beautiful emerald ring that he was going to give her. It was on her finger tonight. She never saw it.

Her daughter, my cousin Kelly was there. She is 2 years younger than me. I feel so bad for her. I don't know what I would do. Kelly said, she's too young to die and I'm too young to be without a mom. I can't imagine her pain. Tomorrow is going to suck.

New Years was quiet and nice. I like sitting home reflecting, then putting on Dick Clark to count down. I always call my mom right at New Years too.
Last night I reflected back on 2009 for a few hours and looked into 2010. After all of that journaling, I found a theme and decided to name 2010 the year of fitness. And because my New Years Resolution last year was such a success, I tweeked it a bit but for 2010 it is to 2 things each month that I have never done and at least one needs to be something fitness related. I'm going cross country skiing in a few weeks so that's one for January! I like this and I'm excited about it.
I've already expanded my comfort zone so much, but I do want to keep doing new things. And 2010 is off to a great start. I'm in the process of moving, just had a great review at work and I'm downsizing and getting rid of lots of crap that has been holding me back. This is all good.
Originally I was supposed to move this weekend but it had to be moved back. Fist, we are getting a pretty bad snow storm this weekend, so tough to move in that. And second, my dad's cousin passed away this week and her services are Sunday and Monday.
That freaked me out. Christina was 58 and had a heart attack. She died in the ambulance on the way to the hospital. Four years ago another of my dad's cousin who was the same age had a stoke. Both died the week between Christmas and New Years. This isn't a trend I want to continue.
When I started to think about Chritina's death, it really started to bother me. It was so sudden, so unexpected. I know she didn't take care of herself. She's gained lots of weigh and drank often. Then I started to think about the people in my life. I don't know what I would do if I lost them and I don't want to find out. I have had some health concerns for 2 people in my life, serious concerns. I didn't know how to say something to them, to tell them that I loved them and I was scared for them and their health.
After Christina died, I knew I had to say something. I sat down and wrote out 2 letters. I tried to be as honest as possible and wrote them both from a place of love and compassion and integrity. I hope that these 2 people, when they receive these letters understand that I wrote them from a place of love with tears in my eyes out of fear that I would lose both of them.
I hope they both use this New Years to turn a page and create a new healthy life for themselves.
I know I want to continue the healthy lifestyle I have created for myself. I think 2010 is going to be a great year. I'm looking forward to all of the possibilities!