New Years was quiet and nice. I like sitting home reflecting, then putting on Dick Clark to count down. I always call my mom right at New Years too.
Last night I reflected back on 2009 for a few hours and looked into 2010. After all of that journaling, I found a theme and decided to name 2010 the year of fitness. And because my New Years Resolution last year was such a success, I tweeked it a bit but for 2010 it is to 2 things each month that I have never done and at least one needs to be something fitness related. I'm going cross country skiing in a few weeks so that's one for January! I like this and I'm excited about it.
I've already expanded my comfort zone so much, but I do want to keep doing new things. And 2010 is off to a great start. I'm in the process of moving, just had a great review at work and I'm downsizing and getting rid of lots of crap that has been holding me back. This is all good.
Originally I was supposed to move this weekend but it had to be moved back. Fist, we are getting a pretty bad snow storm this weekend, so tough to move in that. And second, my dad's cousin passed away this week and her services are Sunday and Monday.
That freaked me out. Christina was 58 and had a heart attack. She died in the ambulance on the way to the hospital. Four years ago another of my dad's cousin who was the same age had a stoke. Both died the week between Christmas and New Years. This isn't a trend I want to continue.
When I started to think about Chritina's death, it really started to bother me. It was so sudden, so unexpected. I know she didn't take care of herself. She's gained lots of weigh and drank often. Then I started to think about the people in my life. I don't know what I would do if I lost them and I don't want to find out. I have had some health concerns for 2 people in my life, serious concerns. I didn't know how to say something to them, to tell them that I loved them and I was scared for them and their health.
After Christina died, I knew I had to say something. I sat down and wrote out 2 letters. I tried to be as honest as possible and wrote them both from a place of love and compassion and integrity. I hope that these 2 people, when they receive these letters understand that I wrote them from a place of love with tears in my eyes out of fear that I would lose both of them.
I hope they both use this New Years to turn a page and create a new healthy life for themselves.
I know I want to continue the healthy lifestyle I have created for myself. I think 2010 is going to be a great year. I'm looking forward to all of the possibilities!