Tuesday, May 15, 2012

One Year

Last year, May 15th was a Sunday.  I remember that weekend well.  I was out with friends on Friday night, the 13th, for a dance lesson, then dinner and drinks.  Saturday was my friend's little sister's wedding in NH and I ended up spending the night at my parents house.

Then on Sunday, I had a date that night.  He had wanted to go out earlier, but I had plans all weekend already.  I remember that the Monday before I had emailed him for the first time, then we were on the phone on Tuesday and already had plans for a date.  We were on the phone a lot that week too. 

I knew we had tons in common but I wasn't sure.  I was on the fence, but just going with it. 

Now, here we are, a full year later.  I woke up in his arms this morning.  He wasn't feeling well all weekend and we were arguing yesterday morning.  I wanted to take him to the hospital but he wouldn't go.  He finally texted me during the day that he went on his own.  Come to find out, he has an ulcer.  I have never seen him in so much pain. 

I was so worried about him yesterday.  I left work a little early to go to his house.  I let out his dog, made him take some Pepto, gave him some water and put him back in bed.  On my way home, I stopped and dropped off his prescription, flew home, got ready, then headed off to do my running group.

It was weird and I was on the fence about it, but I called his parents to let them know.  He had talked to them when he first got home from the hospital but I had talked to him around the same time and he was really difficult to understand.  He was just out of it and in a lot of pain. 

His mom was really grateful that I called and had gone over there.  I let her know I took care of the dog, dropped off the prescription and was going to head back in a bit. She asked me if I was spending the night.  Weird, but yes, I told his Italian mom that yes, I was spending the night at her son's house. 

She thanked me for being there for him and taking care of him.  She told me I could call her if I needed anything.  And I told her the same, if she couldn't get him, she could call me. 

I was really scared though. I have never seen him like that.  I have never seen him in so much pain and I was SO worried about him.  I love him so much and it just really really scared me.  He's still in pain and still not great.  He was home in bed when I left his house this morning, but he is better today than he was yesterday. 

I'll be back over there tonight and making sure he's okay. 

So, it has been a year.  And here I am.  Completely in love and scared something was going to happen to him.  I don't know what the future holds, but I know I love him and I want to be with him.

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Into May!

Its amazing how things turned around in my life once April hit.  Literally on April 1st, everything changed. Things just all fell into place for me.  And I feel like I'm just riding this great wave now.  Things are good.

I still have some of the same old challenges.  As hard as I work, money will always be an issue.  I've work really hard to pay down so much debt and I've made HUGE progress.  Two loans are paid off, and a 3rd is very close.  All my bills are current, but I still struggle with the extra money.  Expenses I don't plan on always seem to just pop up! 

BUT, I won a contest at my gym!  My kickboxing place is amazing.  I just love it there so much.  I love the work out.  I love the people who work there.  I love the regulars who work out in class.  And I love the actually workout.  I can see and feel a huge difference.  3 months ago I was doing "girlie" pushups.  Now I'm cranking out 2 minutes of actual pushups with arm taps!  CRAZY! 

They had a referral contest in April.  $19.99 for the online special got people gloves and 3 classes.  And they are nationwide.  Whoever at my gym referred the most people to our specific location won cash!  $500 for first, $250 for 2nd and $100 for 3rd.  I won first place!!! 

I pay $125 a month for 6 months for the package I got (65 classes that don't expire, but I just pay for 6 months).  Well, I've already paid for 2 months.  When they told me I won, I asked if they could just keep it and we'd call it even, since I owe them $500 anyway.  Works out great for me.  Now I don't have to worry about that anymore and people basically just paid for my kickboxing classes!  :)

THEN, the Nationwide contest!  Whoever nationwide had the most referrals to ANY gym won.  $2500 for 1st, $1000 for 2nd, $500 for 3rd and 4th, 5th and 6th each got $100.  Two of us NATIONWIDE had over 30 referrals!  So its between me and one other person if I won the $2500! 

WORST case, I won $1000 more!  How cool is that???  That's the BAD option!  LOL!  I really hope I win the $2500.  I find out on Monday.  But if that's the case, I am going to pay off my car as soon as I get the money.  That would be SO cool.  I can't believe that I'm that close to actually paying off my car.  And then I'll have another bill gone.  At least for now. 

My plan would be to use that to pay off any other older outstanding debt that is hanging around.  I really want to build my credit.  My goal this year included paying down debt and building up my credit score.  So far, I am pretty sure I've been doing that, at least that's what I'm hoping.

I got my permit to teach bootcamps outside. Last week I did free classes.  This week starts the paying people.  $10 drop in or pay $90 for 10 classes to get one free.  I had a few people ask me about doing the $90 option.   I just want to make sure that I make back the money I paid out for the permit to the town.  But I really love doing it.  And I'm having SO much fun with it. 

Things are just good. 

I have amazing friends.  They are all such great people.  Weird not talking to anyone today.  Well, that's not exactly true.  I was at kickboxing this morning and my friend Jill was in class.  Plus all the regulars I'm getting to know there now. 

But my good friends, the ones I hang out with, talk to, go to when I have to talk to someone, they are all GREAT people.  I have found a really great group that I have SO much in common with.  Working hard, single, never married, no kids late 20's to early 40's.  Three live with their boyfriends.  No drama, so much support and everyone just gets along so great.  They are just a great group.  Carrie is hosting a "clothes swap" this Thursday night.  There are 11 of us in total.  We all bring clothes, jewelry, purses, shoes... things we are ready to part with that typically we would give to good will.  Then, you go home with things from everyone else!  :)  And whatever is left, that gets donated.  I can't wait!  I got SO many things last time I went. 

I talk to someone from that group pretty much every day.  Kristin, Carrie, Jill, Tracie, Trisha, Laura, Christine, Aimee, Patty, and Jenn.  Just GOOD people!  And I'm so happy for all the good things that are going on in all of their lives. 

Then my boyfriend.  :)  Things are going so great with him and I.  I feel like we just turned some sort of corner in our relationship.  Things were rough for a couple of months.  It was hard.  But we made it past that and now?  I feel like we are closer and stronger than ever.  He's a really great guy and he just makes me happy.  I laugh with him and think about him all the time.  I love spending time with him.  I'm just happy with him in my life.  Little things. 

I'm just happy.  I still have some struggles in my life.  I'm still figuring out a few things and what direction my life will continue in, but today... right now... things are great.  Really really great.