So the MRI results are in and I had my appointment with the neurosurgeon yesterday. I have a bulging disc in my neck between C5 & C6 which is causing all of the pain in my shoulder and that's what is causing the muscles to tense up. So now I have all sorts of drugs and in a couple of weeks I have my next appointment to see what I can do from here. Tomorrow I still have my massage therapy appointment so I can talk things over with him too.
I'm nervous about what's going to happen, but at least I know what is wrong, finally.
I'm not allowed to run anymore, but I did tonight and I am again for the 5K on Sunday... I figured 2 more times won't kill me, right? I just need to take it easy. I'm bummed though, but it is what it is!
I had the date last Friday night, went well, so I thought. He texted me the next day and I saw him Monday night, but it was weird. Then he texted me today and I saw him tonight... so for the 2nd out of my comfort zone thing, I told him I had fun on Friday and if he was interested to do it again to let me know. He said (and I am quoting), "yeah, we could hang out again." Hang out?? Hang out?? What is that???? So I'm thinking I'm good here and this is done. Hang out? Really? Again, at least I know now.
I ended up stopping at the pub across from my house after all that. Saw all the regulars and had a blast. I am now really really an official regular myself. That's ok I guess. They asked me how my date was (yes, they knew!). Sunday I am getting together with Jules to watch the game. Weird... I'm making new friends at the Pub too!!
Oh well... time for more steroids and the next Vicodin! NITE!
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
This morning was interesting. I drove to the imagine center for my MRI. I took the Valium about 5 minutes before I got there. I had to wait because something wasn't working right on the machine, so I didn't go until 30 minutes late. I was VERY nervous, but I listened to the tech and closed my eyes before she put me in and didn't open them the entire time. The Valium worked so well that I actually feel asleep in the machine! She woke me up when she would tell me where she was at (1/2 way done! or 4 minutes left!).
I thought I was ok when I got out of there, so I drove the 10 minutes to work. Then I felt like I was going to fall asleep at work and realized the Valium was still in my system. But that was ok, made for an interesting Monday.
Tonight I went jogging. Didn't do too well, only a mile and a half tonight. I guess that's better than nothing, but I am going to do a 5K in less than 2 weeks, and a mile and a half will not cut it! I am meeting everyone there again Wednesday night and I NEED to kick BUTT! :)
I did something else on my list tonight and something outside my comfort zone. I asked a guy on a date. A guy from jogging. I was SO nervous, but I did it and I'm proud of me. It wasn't quite as bad as I thought. I don't think I would have done it a year ago... doing all of these things outside of my comfort zone has really made a huge different in my life. I am so much more open and willing to try new things. I love this and I love where I have come.
I thought I was ok when I got out of there, so I drove the 10 minutes to work. Then I felt like I was going to fall asleep at work and realized the Valium was still in my system. But that was ok, made for an interesting Monday.
Tonight I went jogging. Didn't do too well, only a mile and a half tonight. I guess that's better than nothing, but I am going to do a 5K in less than 2 weeks, and a mile and a half will not cut it! I am meeting everyone there again Wednesday night and I NEED to kick BUTT! :)
I did something else on my list tonight and something outside my comfort zone. I asked a guy on a date. A guy from jogging. I was SO nervous, but I did it and I'm proud of me. It wasn't quite as bad as I thought. I don't think I would have done it a year ago... doing all of these things outside of my comfort zone has really made a huge different in my life. I am so much more open and willing to try new things. I love this and I love where I have come.
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Ever have great plans for the day and you just don't want to get out of bed? I was going to get up early, get to the track to jog by 9 and make it to the 10:30 yoga class. It is 10:24am, I'm laying in bed typing. Oh well. I'll do my best to get at least a walk in. I'm jogging tomorrow night anyway.
(on a side note, I just closed my bedroom window because I swear to GOD, my neighbor is trying to play the "drums" on his trash barrels! It is a Sunday morning PEOPLE! Keep it down!)
I'm a little nervous for tomorrow morning. I have an MRI at 8:45. My back has been bothering me for months. I started up physical therapy in June and in August they told me they couldn't do anymore for me. That's when I started with the massage therapist. Back in June I went Kayaking and after that I couldn't turn my head. Over my birthday I went to 2 yoga classes and had the same results. If I do anything with my upper back/shoulder muscles, they just become inflamed. I went back to the doctor last week and he wants to send me to a specialist, but they need me to have an MRI before they will even set up an appointment... guess to see if I really need to see them. Who knows.
I'm just nervous about the MRI. The doctor gave me valuim for it. That's good. We'll see how it goes.
On other notes... little brother and the girlfriend are in town this weekend. His friend got married yesterday so they flew in Friday night and fly back tonight.
(ok, so maybe the neighbor is tap dancing or something... DRIVING ME CRAZY! Even with the window closed! And I think he's 2 houses over!!! WTF!)
SO I am going up to mom's to watch the Pat's game today and see little brother. It'll be interesting what their plans are for the holidays. Little bro moved in April. Last year, the girlfriend flew here for Thanksgiving and he flew there for New Years. They spent Christmas apart. This is the first Christmas he doesn't live here. Mom will be a mess if he isn't here for Christmas. Not sure if I should say something to him today, in front of the girlfriend to stress the importance of him being here for Christmas. He can't do that to our mother.
I haven't done anything this month outside of my comfort zone yet. I have an idea that I'm not sharing yet.... for tomorrow I think. We'll see. I'm nervous! So I know it is a good idea to try. I'm looking at apartments too again. I read a thing on line about excuses type things and it said the whole, "it happens for a reason" is a cop out to not taking responsibility for things. SO, since that was my excuse for not finding an apartment, I started looking on Craigslist again. I emailed 2 places I liked. We'll see what happens. That is slightly outside of my comfort zone as well.
And I am stepping up to be the General Organizer of the meetup group. That's another thing outside my comfort zone. I don't generally commit to things like that. There are over 170 members of that group! WOW! And I'd be the general organizer? A little intimidating for me. That's part of the reason I have been going back and forth about it.
I did post info on the groups calendar about a few more 5K's. Now that we are training for a one (2 weeks!) it will be nice to keep it up after I made it this far. I'm not ready for over 3 miles in 2 weeks. The most I have done is 2.25 miles! But we'll see how I do. I'm ready to try it.
I guess that's it. Not too much else going on. Happy Fall, enjoy this beautiful Sunday and GO PATS!! :)
(on a side note, I just closed my bedroom window because I swear to GOD, my neighbor is trying to play the "drums" on his trash barrels! It is a Sunday morning PEOPLE! Keep it down!)
I'm a little nervous for tomorrow morning. I have an MRI at 8:45. My back has been bothering me for months. I started up physical therapy in June and in August they told me they couldn't do anymore for me. That's when I started with the massage therapist. Back in June I went Kayaking and after that I couldn't turn my head. Over my birthday I went to 2 yoga classes and had the same results. If I do anything with my upper back/shoulder muscles, they just become inflamed. I went back to the doctor last week and he wants to send me to a specialist, but they need me to have an MRI before they will even set up an appointment... guess to see if I really need to see them. Who knows.
I'm just nervous about the MRI. The doctor gave me valuim for it. That's good. We'll see how it goes.
On other notes... little brother and the girlfriend are in town this weekend. His friend got married yesterday so they flew in Friday night and fly back tonight.
(ok, so maybe the neighbor is tap dancing or something... DRIVING ME CRAZY! Even with the window closed! And I think he's 2 houses over!!! WTF!)
SO I am going up to mom's to watch the Pat's game today and see little brother. It'll be interesting what their plans are for the holidays. Little bro moved in April. Last year, the girlfriend flew here for Thanksgiving and he flew there for New Years. They spent Christmas apart. This is the first Christmas he doesn't live here. Mom will be a mess if he isn't here for Christmas. Not sure if I should say something to him today, in front of the girlfriend to stress the importance of him being here for Christmas. He can't do that to our mother.
I haven't done anything this month outside of my comfort zone yet. I have an idea that I'm not sharing yet.... for tomorrow I think. We'll see. I'm nervous! So I know it is a good idea to try. I'm looking at apartments too again. I read a thing on line about excuses type things and it said the whole, "it happens for a reason" is a cop out to not taking responsibility for things. SO, since that was my excuse for not finding an apartment, I started looking on Craigslist again. I emailed 2 places I liked. We'll see what happens. That is slightly outside of my comfort zone as well.
And I am stepping up to be the General Organizer of the meetup group. That's another thing outside my comfort zone. I don't generally commit to things like that. There are over 170 members of that group! WOW! And I'd be the general organizer? A little intimidating for me. That's part of the reason I have been going back and forth about it.
I did post info on the groups calendar about a few more 5K's. Now that we are training for a one (2 weeks!) it will be nice to keep it up after I made it this far. I'm not ready for over 3 miles in 2 weeks. The most I have done is 2.25 miles! But we'll see how I do. I'm ready to try it.
I guess that's it. Not too much else going on. Happy Fall, enjoy this beautiful Sunday and GO PATS!! :)
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Happy Birthday to ME!
I had a really good birthday weekend. And yes, birthday weekend! I don't think a birthday should be just one day... it should be spread out to be enjoyed and I did! :)
Yesterday was GREAT! I slept in a bit until around 9 or so. When I was up, I went for a walk at Pond Meadow Park (let me just say, I LOVE this park... a great little hide-a-way treasure. A little pond in the middle of the woods with a paved path around it. And you drive through a nice residential neighborhood to get to the parking lot. Just a perfect little escape!). After my walk, I went for a very nice massage. When I left there, I made my way to the beach for a couple of hours. Then I stopped home for a quick shower, then went to a yoga class. Overall, GREAT day!
Today I had my super expensive oil change... $621.98! But hey, I got my inspection sticker too! They gave me a loaner car after I dropped my car off at 7:30am! Then I went home for a while.
That was around the time I had my annual birthday breakdown... full on water works and pity party. This year was a little more than usual, but seeing as I have PMS right now, I guess that's ok.
Then I got ready and went to another yoga class... today was better. My car was done after the class and when I picked up my car, I drove right to Pond Meadow Park for another walk.
Tonight I did my 5K training... got in about a mile and a quarter of jogging. After the rough yoga classes and all the walking my hamstrings feel like they are going to fall off!! But I am still proud of doing something!
When I left the track tonight I went right to the Pub near my house... my bartender shares my bday. She loved the card I got her and she bought me my first beer. A guy bought me my second (and last! Its a work night!) And the best part was, he thought I was in my mid to late 20's! :) NICE!
I was pretty excited with hearing from everyone. Between emails, voice mails, text messages, and facebook.... wow! I heard from 30-40 people today!! That was cool. I heard from an ex boyfriend I haven't heard from in 3 1/2 years... that was odd, but hey, that's my life! I don't expect normal.
Tomorrow is time to get back to the real world. I have already checked my work email and cleared out most of it. Not much work for me to deal with as far as that goes. Just the piles I'll have to deal with when I get to the office. But this was a great 5 days off, so I think I can handle it. And tomorrow is my Monday, and the next day is Friday! Who can't handle a 2 day work week, right? :)
I decided that I am going to work on another of my 101 things... the 1 month of exercising every day. I started on September 4th and my month is up on October 4th with the 5k. Friday night I walked over 3 miles, Saturday night I jogged, Sunday I walked the park, Monday I jogged. Tuesday I walked and did yoga and today I did yoga, walked AND jogged! Tomorrow night I want to take a pilates class and Friday night I want to take another yoga class- if I can't make the 6am class which I already don't expect to happen (I signed up for 1 week unlimited and I want to try as much as I can... its $13 a class after my week is up!). Saturday is jogging and I don't know yet for Sunday... but I can do this! And if I can keep it up for a whole month, then I will really make fitness a regular part of my life! Plus... I have to lose 15-20 pounds by Christmas! It would be great if I got a nice jump start in September, then the rest of the year would be that much easier.
Hmm.... guess I should probably think about going to bed now. My Monday morning is going to come pretty soon! And now that I'm another year older, I really need my beauty sleep now! :)
Yesterday was GREAT! I slept in a bit until around 9 or so. When I was up, I went for a walk at Pond Meadow Park (let me just say, I LOVE this park... a great little hide-a-way treasure. A little pond in the middle of the woods with a paved path around it. And you drive through a nice residential neighborhood to get to the parking lot. Just a perfect little escape!). After my walk, I went for a very nice massage. When I left there, I made my way to the beach for a couple of hours. Then I stopped home for a quick shower, then went to a yoga class. Overall, GREAT day!
Today I had my super expensive oil change... $621.98! But hey, I got my inspection sticker too! They gave me a loaner car after I dropped my car off at 7:30am! Then I went home for a while.
That was around the time I had my annual birthday breakdown... full on water works and pity party. This year was a little more than usual, but seeing as I have PMS right now, I guess that's ok.
Then I got ready and went to another yoga class... today was better. My car was done after the class and when I picked up my car, I drove right to Pond Meadow Park for another walk.
Tonight I did my 5K training... got in about a mile and a quarter of jogging. After the rough yoga classes and all the walking my hamstrings feel like they are going to fall off!! But I am still proud of doing something!
When I left the track tonight I went right to the Pub near my house... my bartender shares my bday. She loved the card I got her and she bought me my first beer. A guy bought me my second (and last! Its a work night!) And the best part was, he thought I was in my mid to late 20's! :) NICE!
I was pretty excited with hearing from everyone. Between emails, voice mails, text messages, and facebook.... wow! I heard from 30-40 people today!! That was cool. I heard from an ex boyfriend I haven't heard from in 3 1/2 years... that was odd, but hey, that's my life! I don't expect normal.
Tomorrow is time to get back to the real world. I have already checked my work email and cleared out most of it. Not much work for me to deal with as far as that goes. Just the piles I'll have to deal with when I get to the office. But this was a great 5 days off, so I think I can handle it. And tomorrow is my Monday, and the next day is Friday! Who can't handle a 2 day work week, right? :)
I decided that I am going to work on another of my 101 things... the 1 month of exercising every day. I started on September 4th and my month is up on October 4th with the 5k. Friday night I walked over 3 miles, Saturday night I jogged, Sunday I walked the park, Monday I jogged. Tuesday I walked and did yoga and today I did yoga, walked AND jogged! Tomorrow night I want to take a pilates class and Friday night I want to take another yoga class- if I can't make the 6am class which I already don't expect to happen (I signed up for 1 week unlimited and I want to try as much as I can... its $13 a class after my week is up!). Saturday is jogging and I don't know yet for Sunday... but I can do this! And if I can keep it up for a whole month, then I will really make fitness a regular part of my life! Plus... I have to lose 15-20 pounds by Christmas! It would be great if I got a nice jump start in September, then the rest of the year would be that much easier.
Hmm.... guess I should probably think about going to bed now. My Monday morning is going to come pretty soon! And now that I'm another year older, I really need my beauty sleep now! :)
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Ever feel like you take one step forward and two steps back? Sometimes my life is like that. I cashed out an old 401K. I wanted to pay off a few things and get a little ahead. I paid off an old debt for over $4,000, plus got caught up in a couple of other bills. Yeah, I went shopping a little, but mostly for new running clothes (since I really am doing this 3 times a week now!). So that was good.
Then I we to get an oil change on Friday after work. Sitting in the waiting room at the dealership... the guy comes over to me and tells me they didn't do it becuase I have a crack in my oil pan. $630, thank you very much. Not sure if that is going to include the oil change or not, or the inspection sticker I am yet again late for. Not to mention that I was down 3 quarts of tranmission fluid and he doesn't know why... no leak or drips found. So who knows what this is all going to end up costing me. And when could I make the appointment for? For Wednesday. My day off. And its my day off because its my birthday. Nice bday gift, huh? So that's my one step forward 2 steps back thing going on right now.
Yesterday was a great day. I got up early, drove up to my parents house and the 3 of us spent the day at the beach. I came home, took a quick shower, had a late lunch, rested on the sofa. At 5:30 I met my friend Kate at the track and for the second time I jogged 2 whole miles without stopping! I can't believe it! I was SO proud of me. The 5K is in a month... 4 weeks from today. If I can go from nothing to 2 miles in 2 months, then I can easily add one more mile in the next 4 weeks.
And I just got on the scale today. I am down 11 1/2 pounds from New Years day. That's nice. I'm happy with that. Today is the new lowest weight I have been all year... more that late. This is the lowest I have been in 2 - 2 1/2 years. Another 15-20 pounds to go. I want to hit my goal by the end of the year.
I figure if I can really lose about 5 pounds a month for the rest of the year, then I can do that. And "they" say that 1-2 pounds a week is healthy and realistic, then 5 pounds a month should be ok. Part of my New Years letter to myself said that 2010 was the first year I wasn't worried about my weight... I really want to make that happen.
Today is a lazy Sunday... I woke up about an hour ago and have only gotten out of bed for the bathroom. Still laying under the covers all cozy. I think it is a little cooler out, but that's ok for a lazy Sunday. I want to go for a walk at some point today. I might go to Pond Meadow Park or even drive up to South Boston to walk at Castle Island and sit at the beach for a while. Just that sort of day.
My parents are taking me out for dinner tonight for my bday. Originally we were going to my favorite Mexican restaurant, but now I don't know if I feel up for Mexican. I might just ask for them to take me to Joe's instead. I always love their food. We'll see how I feel later.
Tomorrow I'm meeting Kate again to try jogging off the track. We are meeting at the beach in Quincy to jog along the boardwalk. I need to drive it first to see what 2 miles are. I need to at least reach that! Wednesday I am supposed to do 2.5 miles!
Tomorrow night I have a date. Well, I don't know if it is really a date. I'm going out with the ex tomorrow. He found me on Facebook last month. We have been talking all the time but only got together once so far. The weather is beautiful and he has a motorcycle so I want to go out on his bike tomorrow. Then we can go out at night too. It's weird having a blast from my past from 13 years ago... but we just click right. Things are nice when I talk to him and when I am with him, so I am just going to go with that and see what happens.
I have 3 more days off after today. Labor Day is tomorrow, then I took off Tuesday and Wednesday for my bday. So a nice long relaxing 5 day weekend. I'm enjoying it so far. Losing the stress and trying to relax. I read one book so far and started the 2nd yesterday. Tuesday I am getting another massage, and then my regular appointment on Thursday at lunch. He's giving me a free one Tuesday for my bday! I think that's great! SO excited.
I go back Tuesday night for Joan's class. I haven't been too focused on those things this summer. I barely read the book we have. I got stuck on the clearing out the clutter chapter. I have so much stuff and downsizing it is SO overwhelming to me. I have too many clothes, and just too much stuff. Starting is the main problem. How do you start when there is just that much stuff! I thought moving would be good, then I would have to clear out stuff... doesn't like moving is happening any time soon though. (the 2 places I wanted were both rented just before I had a chance. Oh well wasn't meant to be!)
And on the topic of moving... I wanted to move. I was seriously looking to move. Now too many signs are happening around me that I should stay put for a while. With 2 places in a row being rented, all sorts of money leaving my account right now for other things, and other little signs... I think I should just wait and see. And then there is the stupid horoscope thing... Mercury is in retrograde. I wouldn't move over the next month anyway with that going on. Stupid, yeah, but with my life I am not taking any unnecessary chances. I'm just going to go and see what happens in my life.
Right now I just plan to relax the best I can and enjoy the 4 days I have left off. Hopefully turning 35 won't be as tramatic as I think it is and even though I don't have plans other than spending money on my car, I hope it turns out to be a good day. How can it not? Its my bday! :) Plus, 9 is my lucky number and my bday this year is 09/09/09! It has to be a good day! :)
Then I we to get an oil change on Friday after work. Sitting in the waiting room at the dealership... the guy comes over to me and tells me they didn't do it becuase I have a crack in my oil pan. $630, thank you very much. Not sure if that is going to include the oil change or not, or the inspection sticker I am yet again late for. Not to mention that I was down 3 quarts of tranmission fluid and he doesn't know why... no leak or drips found. So who knows what this is all going to end up costing me. And when could I make the appointment for? For Wednesday. My day off. And its my day off because its my birthday. Nice bday gift, huh? So that's my one step forward 2 steps back thing going on right now.
Yesterday was a great day. I got up early, drove up to my parents house and the 3 of us spent the day at the beach. I came home, took a quick shower, had a late lunch, rested on the sofa. At 5:30 I met my friend Kate at the track and for the second time I jogged 2 whole miles without stopping! I can't believe it! I was SO proud of me. The 5K is in a month... 4 weeks from today. If I can go from nothing to 2 miles in 2 months, then I can easily add one more mile in the next 4 weeks.
And I just got on the scale today. I am down 11 1/2 pounds from New Years day. That's nice. I'm happy with that. Today is the new lowest weight I have been all year... more that late. This is the lowest I have been in 2 - 2 1/2 years. Another 15-20 pounds to go. I want to hit my goal by the end of the year.
I figure if I can really lose about 5 pounds a month for the rest of the year, then I can do that. And "they" say that 1-2 pounds a week is healthy and realistic, then 5 pounds a month should be ok. Part of my New Years letter to myself said that 2010 was the first year I wasn't worried about my weight... I really want to make that happen.
Today is a lazy Sunday... I woke up about an hour ago and have only gotten out of bed for the bathroom. Still laying under the covers all cozy. I think it is a little cooler out, but that's ok for a lazy Sunday. I want to go for a walk at some point today. I might go to Pond Meadow Park or even drive up to South Boston to walk at Castle Island and sit at the beach for a while. Just that sort of day.
My parents are taking me out for dinner tonight for my bday. Originally we were going to my favorite Mexican restaurant, but now I don't know if I feel up for Mexican. I might just ask for them to take me to Joe's instead. I always love their food. We'll see how I feel later.
Tomorrow I'm meeting Kate again to try jogging off the track. We are meeting at the beach in Quincy to jog along the boardwalk. I need to drive it first to see what 2 miles are. I need to at least reach that! Wednesday I am supposed to do 2.5 miles!
Tomorrow night I have a date. Well, I don't know if it is really a date. I'm going out with the ex tomorrow. He found me on Facebook last month. We have been talking all the time but only got together once so far. The weather is beautiful and he has a motorcycle so I want to go out on his bike tomorrow. Then we can go out at night too. It's weird having a blast from my past from 13 years ago... but we just click right. Things are nice when I talk to him and when I am with him, so I am just going to go with that and see what happens.
I have 3 more days off after today. Labor Day is tomorrow, then I took off Tuesday and Wednesday for my bday. So a nice long relaxing 5 day weekend. I'm enjoying it so far. Losing the stress and trying to relax. I read one book so far and started the 2nd yesterday. Tuesday I am getting another massage, and then my regular appointment on Thursday at lunch. He's giving me a free one Tuesday for my bday! I think that's great! SO excited.
I go back Tuesday night for Joan's class. I haven't been too focused on those things this summer. I barely read the book we have. I got stuck on the clearing out the clutter chapter. I have so much stuff and downsizing it is SO overwhelming to me. I have too many clothes, and just too much stuff. Starting is the main problem. How do you start when there is just that much stuff! I thought moving would be good, then I would have to clear out stuff... doesn't like moving is happening any time soon though. (the 2 places I wanted were both rented just before I had a chance. Oh well wasn't meant to be!)
And on the topic of moving... I wanted to move. I was seriously looking to move. Now too many signs are happening around me that I should stay put for a while. With 2 places in a row being rented, all sorts of money leaving my account right now for other things, and other little signs... I think I should just wait and see. And then there is the stupid horoscope thing... Mercury is in retrograde. I wouldn't move over the next month anyway with that going on. Stupid, yeah, but with my life I am not taking any unnecessary chances. I'm just going to go and see what happens in my life.
Right now I just plan to relax the best I can and enjoy the 4 days I have left off. Hopefully turning 35 won't be as tramatic as I think it is and even though I don't have plans other than spending money on my car, I hope it turns out to be a good day. How can it not? Its my bday! :) Plus, 9 is my lucky number and my bday this year is 09/09/09! It has to be a good day! :)
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