And another week comes and goes.  I was so tired all week after last weekend.  It was great and I learned SO much. I'm really glad that I went through all of those classes.  I am so excited for direction of everything.  I am getting closer and closer to my dreams becoming a reality!  It is a little overwhelming and scary to have it all come together like this. 

I have a studio ready to rent space to me.  I have people ready to take classes from me.  I have a Tax ID # and I'm opening up a bank account in the business name today.  I need to get the website & email set up and I want to do that this weekend too.  Then I have to order my business cards, sign up for first aid & CPR and I need to go to the town hall to register as a new business.

Lots to do but lots already done too!  I'm just really really excited about all of this. 

Maybe a year or 2 ago, I wrote out short term goals.  Then I added in longer term goals.  One was to become a certified group fitness instructor.  I'm just waiting for that to come in the mail!!  Dreams are coming true, one after the other.  It is so exciting but so scary.  I don't want to fail. 

I have so many great people in my corner and so much support all around me.  Everyone is so encouraging to me about everything.  I am scared that if I fail, I'll let them down too. 

And what if I don't love it after I'm doing it?  What then?  I've put so much into this... into this being what I want and the direction I want everything in and about my life to go.  What if I hate doing it?  Then what?  What's next?  What do I do with my life at that point?

It is just so scary to have it all right here, laid out for me, ready to go.  Everything I have wanted!  Right here.  It isn't like it has all been handed to me.  I have worked hard and put in so much effort to get myself where I am.  I wouldn't change the struggles or challenges.  I have learned from them all and each has helped get me to where I am right now. 

But to have it all here for the taking.  All my dreams and hopes are right at my feet.  This is crazy!! 

Otherwise, things in life are good.  Work is going.  My family is good... heading up to see my parents later today. 

My friends... I really do have the absolute best friends in the world.  Yesterday I was thinking of who is on the list of who I could call at 2am.  Years ago, that was a very very short list.  But now?  I have so many people I know I could call who would be right there for me in a heartbeat.  My friends are supportive, encouraging and just great people!  If I go to them with a problem, or just to vent, they listen, make some points that I might not have considered, and offer some suggestions.  But they respect me enough to know that the decisions I make are mine to make and they will support me with whatever those decisions are.  And then still be there by my side. 

My friends are amazing people and I am so lucky to have found them all.  I know that and I'm so happy that I have them in my life.  And the list of great friends continues to grow. And the depth of the friendships have been growing too.  It has been really really nice. 

And then my boyfriend.  I love him so much.  I've mentioned problems and struggles we've had, challenges in our relationship.  Yeah, we still have one challenge that is there... the elephant in the room (personally I say her name starts with a big giant C but that's just my opinion).   That challenge still sits and hangs there.  But things have gotten better. 

Valentine's Day was just great.  I really can't say it any better than that.  It was great.  I didn't want flowers.  I didn't want to go out.  I just wanted a night in, without the computer or phones.  I had wanted him to cook me dinner, get me a card, and have us just connect.  He had been sick on Monday and worked late on Tuesday.  He didn't have time to get things to make dinner.  But he ordered out for us.  And he got me a really nice card.  He was so sweet to me all night. 

Valentine's night was absolutely everything that I wanted but even more... it was everything that I needed.  I needed a night to feel connected with him again.  I needed a night to feel that I mattered and was an important part of his life.  I NEEDED that.  And he gave that to me.  And it didn't stop with just that night. 

I saw him on Wednesday night too, and again last night.  I told him this morning that I noticed.  Its hard to say... not an extra effort, but just more.  He's giving me more of what I need.  He's putting more into us.  I noticed it and I noticed the change.  And I appreciate it SO much. 

Last fall, before anything between us had happened, I was even annoying myself.  All I was saying was, "I am SO happy."  That's all I would say ALL the time.  Then we started having issues in the middle of everything... right there.  That big giant elephant named C right in the middle of me being so happy.  That C took my happiness. 

Last weekend I told my boyfriend that I would give absolutely anything to get back to where we were.  I want to be so annoyingly happy again!  I want that so much.  He had given that to me and I wanted it back.  I miss being that happy all the time.  I was living on cloud 9 and nothing could bring me down! 

After Valentine's Day and after this week... with how he was, and just how he made me feel that day and since, its helping to bring me back to that place.  I looked at a picture I have of us up on my desk the other day.  That picture represents so much to me.  When I looked at that picture this week, I was smiling again.  It has been a while since I've smiled like that.  I missed that. 

He has been giving me back that.  The way he has been, it is bringing me back to where I was.  I love that.  I needed that.  I wanted that so much! 

I really do love him.  I love him so much.  He is such a great person.  He's loving, kind, sweet, honest, supportive, encouraging, and strong.  He is so independent and smart.  He is absolutely driven and accomplish anything he puts his mind to.  He is so funny and fun to be with.  He makes me laugh all the time. 

I love him and I love what we have together.  I needed this week.  I needed everything that he gave me.  And I love him even more for it.  He gets me like no one else.  I have never been more completely myself with anyone ever.  I feel so comfortable and safe and secure with him.  I am free to be me without any judgement at all.  I am just me with him.  No holding back.  No censoring anything or any part of myself.  I am fully and completely myself.  And he lets me do that.  He gives me that.  I love him for that. 

So that's where I am at.  That's pretty much everything that has been going on in my life.  :) 

Things are good and they keep getting better and better.  Each day is a new beginning and a new set of opportunities.  Each day is a fresh start and is one more step closer to making all of my dreams reality!  I can't believe that all of this is happening at once. 

I really am happy with my life.  I know how lucky I am to have it all coming together at once.  That doesn't usually happen.  But I have a great family and amazing friends, my dream career starting and a boyfriend I love.  I really am lucky and I really do have a great life.  :)