There is moving on, then there is being angry

Yesterday I wrote how I got an answer. It wasn't the way I was expecting an answer. I had been told I would actually get an answer. Instead I found the answer on my own. I'm glad that happened. I'm glad I was prepared when I actually did get an answer today.

I'm glad I had already been doing what I need to do to move on. I'm glad that I have already been asked on 2 dates for this weekend. I'm glad I was already feeling better about myself with keeping busy and support and encouragement from some friends.

Today I got an actual answer. This was an answer that came in a way I was expecting. I got an email. Again, I had already accepted everything and was already closing the door and moving on. This? After getting this email? I'm slammed that f'ing door shut, bolting it and covering it up in 5 layers of bricks. WOW.

I can honestly say I am not sure if I have ever been that disrespected before in my life. That was one of the most insulting emails I have ever received. If I was a little angry yesterday, now I'm pissed. If not receiving an answer when I was told I would get one says something a person's character, the emailed answer I received today says even more.

As much as I want to lash out, I'm not, at least not right now. I want to take back my apology for questioning his character. I wasn't wrong. I know that now. After this email, THAT says even more about his character than anything else that has happened. It speaks VOLUMES about him.

I put everything I had and everything I knew into trying to fix this and make this work. But it didn't happen. And after this email, I am SO grateful that it didn't. I don't want to be with someone who thinks that kind of email is an acceptable way to stay true to your word and true to your character. And I really think that he thought this was a nice email. I really do. I think if I did ask him if he thought there was anything wrong with what he said, that he would know how insulting and disrespectful it really was.

I am blown away by the level of disgust I am feeling right now for someone I was begging the universe to give me another chance with. I am SO grateful that I was given the chance to see who he really is. He is an unforgiving, selfish, disrespectful asshole.

I am so grateful I was given the chance to find this out. Now I know that I really can move on and feel good about who I am.