Change of plans

Date one was ok. He was nice enough but no sparks and really not sure I'm interested in a second one. I know he is... he already texted me. OH well. We'll see how I feel in the morning.

And I was having mixed thoughts about date 2. Not loving the idea of driving up to 45 minutes to meet a guy I don't know for dinner on a Saturday night. That's a LONG time for a first date!

I sent a message to a friend of mine that I was thinking of canceling date 2. Well, I did and now her and I are going out for dinner instead! :) Happy with that! I'll have more fun hanging out with her anyway. And I have to get up early anyway for the race in the morning.

URGH! Date #2 is calling right now. Not answering it. :( I sent him a text to reschedule saying my plans today are running longer than I expected. And he calls me? Oh well. Yeah, if I'm annoyed already, then I know I'm just not that into him.

As much as I want to jump right back into the game, I don't think I'm ready. Unless its a great guy. The last one, granted his nasty and disrespectful email, but that aside, he was a great guy. We had a really good thing and he had all the qualities I was looking for in someone. That's going to be hard to find again and I know I'll be thinking about him and comparing others to him and that's not fair.

I did today. Date 1. He was a nice guy, very sweet. He's not stable in his life and just young. There's nothing wrong with being young but I want someone who emotionally is stable. This guy wasn't.

And then while we were out, a song came on at the bar that reminded me of the last guy. It was hard to focus on the conversation at that point. A song I love that came on SO many times while I was out with the last one.. he made fun of me for it because I would always sing it. So I started thinking of him but refused to sing to the music. :( Made me sad.

SO I came home and re-read the nasty email to remind me of how rude and disrespectful he was in his final email. That helped snap me out of it a bit. But its still sad. It really was something good and could have been something great. I thought it was really going to be. But it wasn't. And I'm letting it go. Slowly.