I just looked over the goals for the month of May that I posted for the beginning of the month. I don't think I did all that well. The topic of surrender STILL keeps coming up for me, but I'm not doing a wonderful job at it.
SO a quick recap.
Goal 1, don't talk bad about other. Yeah, failed. There are a few people in my work and personal life who keep coming up. The same sentance starts for 3 people (2 work, one personal) "I hate _____(fill in name)" Can't stand all 3 of them. Don't want them in my life at all anymore. The one in my personal life, I've done a pretty good job at creating lots of distance between us, but she still comes around at times, including once last week and a WHOLE bunch of very ignored emails. The other 2? Two different accounts I need to handle at work... gotta deal. I just vent by saying I hate them both. I need something more productive next month! :)
Goal 2, don't be tied to my, and others expectations. Failed this too. My boss called me in his office on Friday to tell me that I was not allowed to check emails over my 5 day weekend. He can see my stress. I wanted to scream at him that he created most of it with an unrealistic deadline that he set. But he said my dept did "good enough" that our accounts are happy. Funny... when I wrote my goal, I was even mentioning this deadline in it! Yup, still not done.
Goal 3, Only control my responses. Yeah, my responses weren't too good. That was another part of being called into my boss's office. My very obvious stress level. SO, my back is worse, TMJ is back, headaches are starting up again.... gotta love stress. I really need to focus on this one. When I am stressed or in certain situations or around certain hot buttons (like my mother!) I lose control easily.
Goal 4, Proud of my accomplishments. I think I did ok on this one. I did my best at work. I tried and did pretty good at golfing. I did my best at the 5K training. And I keep eatting better than I have ever eatten in my life! I'm doing ok.
I need to relax more. I need to get rid of my stress and find better ways at handling it. Today was good... a nice day at the beach (after a huge blow out with my mother, but after 15 minutes at her house, what else is really expected?)
I want to go to the beach again tomorrow by myself, then on Wednesday morning too. The beach helps me to relax and be centered... just the sun and the sand and ocean air... ahh... I love summer!
SO my goals for June??
1)Have at least 1 postive way I dealt with stress by the end of June. Just one! I'm aiming small to start.
2) Keep with my fitness goals, and even if I fall off track (HA HA, no pun intended, but I still LOVE it!) with my 5K training, be able to run 2 miles straight, 3 times a week by the end of the month!
3) Don't weigh myself the entire month of June. I weighed myself on mom's scale today, after eatting breakfast, lunch, snacks and a ton of crap, and I was 143. I can weigh myself at mom's come July, but I cannot weigh myself on any scale for the entire month of June.
4) Have at least 2 situations where I knowingly gave up control by the end of June. I have lots of control issues and I need to let go more. My goal is to CHOOSE to give up control twice... to make a choice and effort and realize it is happening, twice in June.
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