My "To Do" list for today is HUGE! I wrote out the list about an hour ago so I wouldn't forget anything I need to do today or pack up today. And I have been sitting on the sofa, watching the news and on my laptop since. Neither are on my "to do" list. :)
I should be getting in the shower in about 3 hours. Between now and then I need to melt chocolate, dip the truffles in that, melt more white chocolate to drizzle over the truffles, and have them in the fridge for a while to harden back up. I need to finish wrapping my... wait um, START wrapping my Christmas gifts. I need to pack my back to sleep at my boyfriends house tonight and shower and get ready for Christmas at his house in the morning. And I need to pack up everything in my car.
Oh yeah, and I need to finish knitting one or 2 more scarves for Christmas gifts. If I can get one done, I'm happy. My mom can wait for me to finish the one I am half way through for her. I have one done for my boyfriend's mom and I want to finish the one I'm in the middle of my Aunt Mary.
Not sure why I always leave SO much for the very very end, but that's ok. I work best under pressure! I think I should do the chocolate for the truffles sooner rather than later so they have time to sit in the fridge after. But I gave myself 2 hours to shower, get ready and pack... I have to leave my house in just under 5 hours. AHHHH..... not sure how I'm going to make it through.
But I like Christmas. I'm excited about it all this year. Tonight we are celebrating my grandpa's 90th birthday, which will be fun. Plus, I get to see all the extended family I almost never see, including my bother being home for Christmas for the first time in years!
I can't wait until tomorrow morning to give my boyfriend his Christmas gift. I'm so excited about that! I really really hope he likes it. I know it is absolutely the last thing he'll expect. He has NO idea about it and I love that!
AND, this is the first time ever that I'll be bringing someone around for Christmas. I don't think I've ever brought anyone to anything with my mom's family at all, so that's kind of a big deal. We have to make the rounds tomorrow, but I'm excited about it all.
Last night was so much fun when we went out. I took the boyfriend out for his bday. We just went to the 99 and sat at the bar for dinner and drinks... LOTS of drinks. He was WRECKED when we left. 5 Jack and Diets can do that! But he liked his bday gifts... 6 shirts, a hoodie, a Dunkin mug and gift card, a cake, dinner and my little home made gift certificate for a massage with the massage oil. He said he had a great birthday, which is good. He wasn't really into his birthday but I love them and think they ARE big deal.
It was fun to go out, chat with people at the bar and just be a couple. Things with him and I are going even better. I love him so much and I'm just so happy with him and how things are with us. He's such a great person. No one is perfect, but he really is perfect for me. He's who and what I need in my life. I've never been more of ME with anyone else, ever! Friends, family, other relationships. Never.
Different people see different parts of your personality, different sides. I'm not the same person in the office as I am at the pool or for Sunday dinner with my family, or out at the bar with friends. Even being around different friends, they all see different sides of me. I'm not the same with everyone. It all depends on the relationship.
Some of my friends are more open than others. Some are more conservative. Some are more philosophical. They all see different sides of me. I'd say my friend Michelle is the most open, least judging friend I have or have had ever. I know she accepts me as I am, warts and all and doesn't judge me on anything I have or could say. I've always held back with other people. Even if they say or said that I wasn't judged... you know when you are being judged. Michelle is the only friend who never judged me.
But my boyfriend? NEVER. Never ever felt judged by him with anything. I could say or do anything with him. I can share dreams, fears, plans, past experiences... anything at all. No judgement what-so-ever. I have never, ever, in my life, been more of just ME with anyone as I am with him. He sees all sides, every part of me, just me, who I am completely. It is just amazing and so comforting to be this open with someone. To be this accepted by someone.
And I love him the same way back. Him. Exactly who he is. Not part of him, not just certain sides of him. ALL of him. I love him completely for who he is, as he is.
I am so happy with everything in my life. This has been an unbelievable year for me. SO many different experiences, highs, lows, accomplishments, challenges. Everything was all over the place for me in 2011 but I have come out of this year a smarter, stronger, wiser and happier person than I have been.
I have new friendships that have developed and become huge parts of my life. I have so many amazing people on my side, supporting me. I have never have this many strong, happy and healthy relationships.
I have a new direction in my life. A new focus on what I want to accomplish and who I want to be going forward. I know where I want to be and I have been working hard and taking the necessary steps to take me in that direction.
2011 has been a great year. I really honestly do not ever remember being as happy as I am right now.
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