Crazy Week again

Vacation was amazing and unbelievably relaxing. More this year than any year past. It was great having the guy show up for a couple of days. He got along great with the family and overall it was really fun.


Always tough getting back into the routine and heading back to work. I had gained some weight, which I realized BEFORE vacation... 5 pounds since meeting the guy, plus 3 more on vacation! I wasn't worried about the 3. Gained them in a week and I could lose it even faster. Of the even 8 pounds, I'm already down to only 3.2 left to lose, so I feel good. Just watching what I'm eating and getting LOTS more exercise. Pretty sore right now... chest, tri's and abs on Wednesday night.

Then work... took until Tuesday afternoon for me to get to Monday's emails! But I'm pretty caught up at this point. Today is going to be a really busy day. I have 2 trainings, plus I wasn't at my desk for close to 2 hours yesterday afternoon, so I have all of those emails to catch up on too. JOY!

What else? I had 2 wakes this week. One on Sunday night and another Tuesday night. My cousin passed away last week. 29 and a horribly sad story. I feel so much for her family and can't even imagine what they are going through. The second was my friends mom and that was tough too.

Then yesterday... when I wasn't at my desk for a while in the afternoon. The sexual harassment thing from a few weeks ago, well I needed to make it official yesterday. After talking to someone else and hearing things she had been going through I asked her for his initial. It was the same person. Her and I walked to HR together and officially reported everything that was going on and what had happened to both of us (her receiving a hug and a kiss on the forehead, him buying her a $100 gift and having it shipped to her house, comments to her and others near her about their appearance, and more things like that).

If he is going to kiss her on her forehead? The comments suck, don't get me wrong, but they are only comments. To cross the line and kiss her on her forehead? And then to tell me he wants friends with benefits? If he crossed the line with kissing her & saying what he said to me, this is now not just me and not just an isolated thing. I know saying something and making this official is the right thing to do, but I'm freaking out.

Because its official, something is now going to happen. I don't know what, but something. At first I was freaking out because he might be fired now that we've and specifically because I have spoken out. But now? I'm freaking out because... what if he isn't fired? What if he stays? Obviously they are going to talk to him. He'll know I said something. What if he doesn't lose his job??? I'm freaking out because of that part now.

This whole situation just sucks and there is no other way to say it and no way around it. I am uncomfortable around him and too many others are as well. This isn't fun anymore. Something had to be done. I know I did nothing wrong and I know speaking out is the right thing and what has to be done. But DAMN this just sucks! Why did he have to go and do this and ruin everything???