2012 in general has sucked up until this point.  I keep hoping that things will get better.  They might for a day or 2 but overall... things suck.  I wish I felt better about things could be happier right now.

Saddest part is, I have so many really great things that are going on.  But the bad is just really so bad that it has completely overshadowed the really great!  And I hate that!  I wish I could get past it all, but it hasn't been working out that way. 

I'm going to give myself the rest of tonight to be down.  Tomorrow is a new day.  I'm meeting friends for a 5K and I'm going to have fun.  Next week I'll be busy and the weather is going to be beautiful!!  Spring starts too! 

So I have tonight to be down. Tomorrow, no matter what it takes, I am going to turn things around.  I am going to start to see things better and be happier and more positive. 

Even the couple hundred dollars I spent today didn't help!  An incredible 1 hour massage to start my day, followed by some retail therapy that included a couple pairs of shoes (SO friggin CUTE too!).  Since both pairs are open toe and the weather will be close to 80 next week, on my way home I stopped for the best pedi I have ever had! 

Then I was home for less than an hour before going to teach my bootcamp class.  They did amazing today and I was so proud of them too! 

So yeah, it should be a good day.  But it isn't.  And I don't see me feeling any better about it. 

I have today to be down and tomorrow I need to change things. I need to get myself in a better spot and find a way to be happy again.  Whatever that is going to take.