My computer is still acting up a bit. I want to have my boyfriend take a look at it and see if he do something to fix it... or at least buy me another 6 months with this thing. I'd hate to have to buy another one right now.

Today is so beautiful out and I feel like I'm wasting it. I am still in what I wore home from my boyfriends house at 7:15 this morning. I've done a little cleaning in the kitchen and bathroom and put away more laundry. I've organized a few things in the living room, have more stuff for recycling too. And I've watched tv and been online. That's about it. And now its almost 1:30.

SO many of my friends are working today, including my boyfriend. I'm home, doing nothing. Its too warm out for me to want to go for a run, so I'm not. I'm tired and I don't feel like moving either. I don't want to do more cleaning. I'm just being completely and totally lazy today. NO motivation whatsoever. OH well.

I'm allowed days like this I guess. I was going and going and going for so long, I knew I needed a little break. A lazy, stay in my pj's and do nothing day is good for me. OH yeah... AC is out of the window too.

Hmm... just realized I didn't take any of my prescriptions today. NOT good. Maybe no ADD meds is why I'm not motivated and slacking and tired and having my mind jump all over the place. I've been taking my meds every day, no break even on weekends. I guess its good to have a break now and again, but just realized it and I can totally see the difference! How my whole day has been... even how I'm writing... all over the place!

Hmm.. what else did I want to say (see, doing it again!) OH! Minimized on my screen is another window about a fire. A house burnt down this morning. Around the corner from my parents house. Literally, around the corner! Like, the house across the street, behind them and then across that street. What's left of it is being torn down today. Just sucks! I can't imagine losing everything like that.

OH, and I wanted to do monthly goals. I didn't do them the beginning of the month. Been having so many computer issues, it has been a struggle to get on this when I do remember I want to list some out.

Even slacking today, I want to keep building up my running. My goal by the end of the month is to be back in training mode. My Halloween, I want to be running 4-5 miles again, three times a week. Then swimming once or twice a week too. I need to really start focusing again on my fitness and training schedule.

(This morning, when this laptop was working, I applied again for the marathon team. NEED to start my training again!)

What else? So October... start getting back into my training schedule is #1.

#2 October goal??? Take more steps toward becoming a trainer and working toward that goal, that career path.

I got an email the other day from someone I only met a couple of times in the fitness group. She thanked me for helping get her on her path. She told me her whole story but wrote:

Your programs were so well done that the bit of coaching I got from you in those events helped me along to reach personal goals. I thought you should know that you have influenced more than the regulars. I appreciate you and all that you have done. Thank you!

WOW! Seriously! Made a huge impact on me getting that email. Completely reminded me why I want this path for fitness and coaching. I've only met this woman maybe 3 times! How great is it that she reached out to me like this?

SO I need to take more steps towards my goal and becoming certified and begin teaching classes. I need to find a way to make this happen.

What else? Goal #3 for October?? Not a fitness goal? What can I do this month otherwise? Hmm... What's a good goal that will help bring more good things in my life or keep me on the path I am on??

I love my boyfriend. Things are amazing with him. But I can't think of something I should do for or with him or that relationship. Things are just amazing the way they are. I'm incredibly happy and I don't want anything to change there.

My friends? We have a blast. We are going away next weekend for a race in CT. I can't wait! Plus yoga now with 2 of my friends and still at the track and about to start swimming again too, so I'll see more friends there with that too.

My family? Things with mom and dad are good. I've seen lots of extended family in the past month or so with the wedding and a couple of wakes and funerals.

I guess nothing else for right now? That just doesn't seem right. Hmm... money? I'm still a mess financially. I paid off a loan in June and I have one more payment on another loan this month, then that is paid off too. Then I have my car left... that should pay off next summer. I'd love to be debt free, but really? That'll never ever happen! LOL!

SO with my boyfriend, my friends, my family and my finances, keep everything going in the right direction that I've been doing. I have wonderful happy and healthy relationships in my life. Amazing people who love and support me and make me happy. Life is just really really good. :)

Hmm... what else to do today? I can't believe I am just wasting this entire day! Maybe I'll just take a nap. I did want to go for a walk, but not sure if I'll get up the energy to leave and go anywhere!

I still don't have my freakin license! I renewed it a month ago, on my birthday! They made a 2nd one for me and mailed that out... per my call last week, that was sent out on Monday, October 3rd! A week ago?? And this is the 2nd one and I still don't have it. If I don't get it in the mail tomorrow I'm going to be freaking out! No mail Sunday, no mail today. I BEST have it on Tuesday. SO frustrating!