Today has been a pretty good day for the most part and I still have hours left. It's about 4:30 on Saturday afternoon. I had set my alarm for 8am this morning to get the day going.
After a sluggish start, I left for the track at 9:45 to meet my friends. I completely forgot to eat my protien bar while I was home and grabbed it on the way out the door. I ate it on my drive to the track with some water. NOT good! I need more time in between eating and running. Should have had it earlier with some milk and then left for the track. Anyway.. somehow finished 1 3/4 miles of jogging with a horrific side stitch! I had walked 3 warm up laps and ended up doing another 2-3 miles after the jog with Jill. Nice to catch up and chat. She's pretty cool. (funny cuz she went to college with NA- the annoying one and didn't like here then. somehow ended up back here and couldn't believe she was stuck around NA again!)
Speaking of NA, she was there today. Did my best to avoid her. I can't even say how many times she inturrupted me. Jill and I were talking about a website I had emailed her and NA just started talking over us about swimming. I made it REALLY obvious I was annoyed at her inturrupting us. After quickly answering NA's question, I looked back at Jill and said, where was I? What was I in the middle of saying? But it was only the 3 warm up laps I had to deal with and there were several of us together so it wasn't too bad. :)
So after walking with Jill, I came home and made a pot of coffee... I was DYING for my caffine fix. Then I emptied the dishwasher, did some more dishes, and realized I had never really washed my bathing suit from the other night, so pulled out the bucket and woolite to clean that. Then since I had the bucket out, wanted to mop. I moved the kitchen table around, swept and mopped the kitchen and did all of the counters. The kitchen was SUPER clean. The only thing I didn't do was inside the fridge. Trash day is Monday, so I could do that tomorrow night. (I hate leaving food in the trash too long before trash day).
Then I decide to clean out the oven too... just before I started sweeping. Since I almost never cook, the oven doesn't get too dirty. The last time that I cleaned it was just as I was moving in and I didn't stick around for it to clean. Um, yeah. HORRIBLE! It was hot, smokey, and smelt like burning plastic! My house is super old and it has an exhaust fan to outside over the oven. I had that on, the 2 windows open, the ceiling fan on, and the door to the kitchen closed so the smell wouldn't get to the rest of the house. Plus I put in 2 Clean Cotton candles to help.
It was so bad, as soon as I finished mopping I had to leave the room! My eyes were BURNING! After the chlorine burning my eyes Thursday night, they are still pretty sensitive. It was SO bad. I went into the living room and surfed on my laptop for a while and watched some TV. Finally it was a little better and I finished up in the kitchen, put everything back.
Then... it was on to more working out! I remembered the old bootcamp exercises that Alex did with us last year when I was going 2-3 times a week. I did all of that stuff SOLID for about 40 minutes. I couldn't do the lunges though. My knee is REALLY sore from the run today. I'm afraid I did something to it. It started hurting after the 5 mile race a few weeks ago and since then after I run it gets pretty sore, and always the same place. The outside of my left knee. HURTS! On the first lung I tried, I knew there was no way. The squats were ok though so I did a ton of those, with the bicept curls then I did the nuts arm thing Alex did. I ended up on the floor doing her leg routine and I'm pretty sure I'll have a hard time walking tomorrow!
And I did a REALLY good ab workout. I want to keep doing abs more regularly. I know I already have some defination but I really want a solid 6 pack. I know I could get it even if I only spent 10 minutes a day doing abs.. not even 10 minutes! I'll get there.
SO... after all of that, I was back in the kitchen. I had a very old picture of me up on the fridge. It was my reminder when I wanted to open the door and snack. I picture of me about 10 years ago. I was really thin and fit and looked good. So for the past few years while I wanted to lose weight, that was my goal.. to get back to that picture.
I took the picture off the fridge and put it in the drawer. I don't need it as a reminder anymore of what I want to be. I don't want to be who is in that picture. It was from New Years Eve many years ago and my old psycho roommate took the picture of me that night. I had a drink on the table and a cigarette in my hand. I never exercised and ate like crap. Yeah, I was thin, but I wasn't healthy. And I wasn't happy either.
So now that picture is put away. I like where I have come to at this point in my life. I am happier and healthier than I have ever been. I don't need a picture on my fridge to tell me what to strive for. I'm thinner now than I was in the picture! And I don't smoke, I barely drink and I exercise at least 5 days a week. I am not the absolute best I could be with my eating habbits, but I am SO much better than I have ever been.
Now I'll need a new picture for my fridge; a new goal to set for myself. Maybe I can find a picture of a finish line of a race. Something to keep me going for the half marathon. This is going to be a challenge for me. Even today with my knee sore, and not doing as well as I wanted for my run, I started to doubt my ability to really go through with 3 months of training for this. But I have committed to it. I told so many of my friends and I am going to do this!
Nothing worth anything ever comes easy. Working for this, to run a half marathon.. even the 10K on New Years Day... those are going to be big challenges for me. It won't be easy. It will be lots of hard work and dedication. But the sense of accomplishment when I finish? :) That's what I want! I want to work so hard for something, towards a goal I really want, and then do it! And run across those finish lines! My time won't matter. My speed and pace, I really don't care. I want to finish. That's my only goal for the 2 races. Finishing. I just want to cross the finish line! It will be hard work to get there, but again....
Nothing worth anything ever comes easy.
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