Funk

The past two weeks were a bit challenging. Last Saturday night I was so excited that the week was finally going to be over since it had been so tough. This week was worse. My best friend at work was part of the layoff. I'm just so crushed that she's gone and still in shock that the whole thing happened. Hard to trust everything now when we keep getting mixed information that just doesn't make sense.

My shoulders have the rocks back, but I know it is all stress related. Two weeks of this mess, and that's where it all goes. I'm trying to be active, have outlets to let it out and stretch. Hasn't made much difference yet, but I did skip swimming Thursday night to give my shoulders that break. Too bad that was the last chance... the pool is closed until October.

My running group and the fitness group as a whole is going amazingly well. I love my friends that I've made as part of this and I'm just really happy to have such great people in my life. The group and these friends have made a huge impact on me. I love this group and they are just amazing!

I've been dating someone new as well. He's a really great guy. He's nice, has his act together, and just good to me in general. I'm taking things really really slow without any pressure or expectations and just seeing what happens and where things go. So far so good. It is very different than anything I've done before... VERY different, but what I've had and done before obviously didn't work. So again, no expectations and just going with the flow of where this takes me.

Last night was a late night with the new guy. I actually fell asleep at his house for a couple of hours... his dog woke me up! Good thing! I ended up leaving around 3, but didn't sleep well once I was home. Tossed and turned most of the night.

Been in a funk most of the day. 6pm and I never showered, never left the house and barely did anything other than run the dishwasher, take the recycling downstairs to the bin, watch tv and read a magazine. I had a big list too... just lazy and in a funk. Not motivated to do anything, and I really don't even want to talk to anyone today.

The past 2 weeks have been very stressful, full of change and just overwhelming. I can only take so much change at once and this was too much for me. Toss in added stress and work being busy, I'm cooked! I hit my limit. And the 2 weeks finally caught up to me. I'm just lazy and chilling. Still in a funk and trying to shake it, but I really think I needed a whole day of nothing today. I'll shower later but for now, I'm enjoying the nothing.

Yesterday I did weights for an upper body workout. Damn! My arms are KILLING me and it has just been 24 hours. I'm in trouble in the morning. I might not be able to lift my arms by then. But with all the running and swimming, I already had definition and my baby bicep muscles! I figured a little weights would make a big difference quickly. Guess I just pushed it a little too much. I just need to be more consist ant with the weights so keep it up.

And 2 more days of this weekend. That's a REALLY good thing. The break is good. I need this. I'm tired. I've done nothing today but I'm still mentally exhausted from life in general. This break from everything and everyone is a good thing. I'm glad I canceled my plans for tonight. Staying home and doing nothing is a good thing for me.

Eventually I'll come out of the funk. Overall, I have a good life. I have good friends & family, a good job, and good everything. Life is good but I'm getting over the funk.