I love working on the 29 day gift project. It really makes me think about doing for others. Some days have been easier than others, but I like that it makes me think. I think tomorrow I am going to bring in the bag of clothes I took out of my room and first give them to someone from work to look through then donate the rest of it. That'll be one days give. I should probably come up with a few ideas of what I can do.

Today my back is really bothering me. My massage therapist when pretty deep today so overall the muscles are sore. I am going to need a vicodin before I go to bed tonight.

And the skinny bitch club is going well. I think more about the food choices I am making knowing that I am having a weighin. Tomorrow is the big day. I'm scared about it, but we'll see how I do. I think I've had a pretty good week, but I don't know. Yesterday I ate so much and Saturday was the last day I did anything physical. But I need to lose at least 15 pounds by Dec 23rd. That's a scary number. I guess one good thing is that I was having a bad weight day last Wednesday when we had our starting weighin. So I should lose at least 3 pounds this week. Hopefully anyway! :)

Not a whole lot of other stuff going on right now. OH! I went to a wine tasting with a couple of new friends last night. It was SO much fun! We had a ton of food, and tried 11 different wines. Some I didn't love, but some were REALLY good. It was nice to hang out with Carrie and Christine too. I like them both and its fun starting new friendships.

Christine had a great idea for something outside of my comfort zone; something where I need to be up on a stage like an acting class, improve class or poetry reading. I KNOW that would be SO outside of my comfort zone so I think I need to do some research and find something like that for me to do and beat.

Another thing I have learned recently, with the whole 29 day project... it is so much easier to give than receive. I have no problem giving non-material gifts to others, but such a hard time accepting gifts in return. I was talking to my massage therapist today about how my AC unit was still in the window even while it was snowing out on Sunday and that I am not supposed to lift that much weight to take it out. He offered to pop over to my house next Wednesday when I have the day off to take it out for me! Just to do. Then someone at work saw the condition I was in at the end of the day... falling asleep and nursing miagraine symptoms. He offered to go about 30-40 minutes out of the way on his commute home to take me home in case I didn't think I could drive.

I couldn't accept either offer. I just couldn't. SO I realize that one of the things I need to work on is accepting help and gifts from others. There is nothing wrong with having help with things. I think I have fought too hard and too long to prove that I am independant that I took it to an extreme that it is tough to have help with anything now.